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Sunday, May 13, 2012, 12:19 AM
"why havent you sleep?""huh. no. just came back from work." "then are you hungry?" "no. why? you wanna buy me supper??" "yes...can...if you come down (to JB)" ahhh...my mom understands sarcasm. ok. HAPPY MOMS DAY TO ALL THE MOMS IN THE WORLD. not inclusive of those who had an abortion & now childless. xoxo 20 points gone.
Saturday, May 12, 2012, 1:31 AM
wow ok. new layout for blogger.need sometime to get used to this. first of all, dont be in a relationship because you dont wanna be lonely but for the sake for liking or loving that person. not to say i've seen many relationships crash & burn but to say thats how things dont last, because you're doing it for the wrong reasons. secondly, when silence is required as disturbing other people is certainly unpleasant please respect that. for instance, chit chatting or whispering, doing anything that would disrupt the peace is not cool. in return, you'd receive stares from me & irresponsible blames from me, that is, if you have enough balls to anger me. also, blaming you for my insufficient need for success is somehow reasonable as you were a variable to my loss of concentration thus, OFF WITH YOUR HEAD. if you think you have a need for it i disagree because for some reason, you no longer have a need for it as nothing gets in it. OR you're just being an ignorant asshole who doesnt know how to respect other people. if so, shame on you. i'd like to see what your parents have to say. 3rdly, over worrying has become a new hobby of mine now. huu-rah. xoxo I Genuinely Cant See Everything
Monday, April 16, 2012, 12:58 AM
ahh my cbox has been bombarded by auto computerized porn sites posing as strangers who can actually read what i write. how do i know their porn sites? i dont. cant be bothered to click on em. do it for me then tell me?a thought suddenly came to me as i have realized that it will cost a bomb to dress up. think of the load of cash needed to purchase make up, hair products, or going to the salon to color it, nails, shoes, new bags, new outfits...clothes nowadays dont come cheap, even 2nd hand ones are called vintage thus over priced. then there are accessories & more shoes & jewelry. how are you not to be broke if you were to keep up with all the trends? its so exhausting. but is it really? is it really that exhausting? answer : nope. you could always choose not to care & do whatever you like. if you think carefully, its your life & you choose the way you want it to be. so, good luck. hope you know what you want. once you do, go for it. it wouldnt be depressingly tiring if you enjoy it. xoxo Labels: thinking things looking gay much.
Monday, April 2, 2012, 1:20 AM
hello you anonymous stalkers who dont respond.how you doing? a very rhetorical question; i know. MARCH HAS BEEN A CRAZY MONTH FOR ME. so thankful for all the happy awesome & the frustrating shitty things that happened to me. its been mental, suddenly its too good to be true & the next, its makes you sad. but ofcourse. i'll focus on the positive ones... like how i saw mr. wang live in concert + i was super close to him. then seeing ms fish leong in JB. by coincidence. had no idea she was gonna be where i was at. heee i saw SNSD live as well, too bad yuri wasnt there. heard she was the prettiest in person but in my opinion, they all were the same as you see on tv so theres not really a loss cause they're the same!! get it? im very glad my friend, leonie, is doing well. her condition is much improved & i pray she recovers speedily & never relapse. so thankful i got to see my friends in JB as well. & also dad's eyes surgery went well. quick one that was. also for friends who came by to see me at work. even more thanks to those at work. my TSTMPV colleagues, they treated me kindly & were really straightforward. which was a good thing i guess. hardens one's heart & toughens one's mind. im not dead thus im stronger! one things for sure is, i'll definitely go back to see em again hahaha note to self (as you are reading this, this applies to you as well) : thou shall not be petty but generous to achieve happiness. thou also shall not procrastinate too much as it may affect your progression level. less delay; more achievement. thou shall be thankful as thankful people are happy. count your blessings & do not complain. gahh i feel old...er. i am older hahaha im ready to be older too. oh well, theres nothing to stop it anyways. xoxo Labels: new shit will not be the last visit.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012, 12:24 AM
i procrastinate. alot.too much actually. i do know it effects my health & time managing but sometimes in life you're just too busy with life you forgot how to relax. then your body just stops for a long period of time to take a break by stoning. you refuse to do the necessary things & important essentials. sooner or later you gotta do it so. snap outta it. i'll update you imaginary readers about my life later while i get on with mine now. just needed to type shit out so i can wake myself up. heading back to JB for 30hours+ excellent. xoxo Labels: new shit surprises everywhere
Sunday, March 4, 2012, 2:09 PM
so midvalley's topshop, topman, DP & MS has closed down for over a week now for renovation & i've transferred to pavilion's topshop for the month. been meeting & seeing friends. very pleasant memories. i miss them all. i honestly miss working with my fellow TSTMMV team members. & i've only got one month left. exactly one month to go back.looking forward to doing so but yea, i'll definitely miss my coworkers at pavilion as well, people there are amazing too. im writing just to reflect back. im so thankful for many many things. i may not show it but in my heart im truly grateful for the things God provided; whether it may be good or not so nice...im still glad. everything happens for a reason so i guess we just gotta keep hanging on & strive to survive. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger...thus. we're stronger everyday! muahahhahahaha k. so. i went for paintball with my friends from TSTMMV last friday; super fun & got shot at my butt! bumped into meihong while she was shopping (i had to work that evening) & ended up sleeping over at her hotel room. she was in town to go for 王力宏's concert at stadium merdeka. went back to work the next day. fabulous part was the hotel is so near the mall i woke up at 9am & wasnt late for work...naisssse... CLIMAX ALERT!! after work she texted me 5 magical words : babe come concert with me! i was thinking...O.M.G. whadddd seriously!? called her up & fuuuyeahhh 2 VVIP tickets! got to see him so close up. & hes really handsome in real too :) haihh it all feels like a dream. thats the highlights of my past week. hopefully there would be more to come in the future, especially within this month. very glad february is over. xoxo p/s check this out ;) i like this song + MV alot alot alot hehe Labels: fun; friends, MV; new shit find your purpose in life
Sunday, February 26, 2012, 3:04 PM
repeat after me : "the world is full of liars AND, i am one too."you see, we lie all the time no? intentionally or unintentionally. true? agree? yes no? on another note. i hate being roomless. ever had that feeling? wanting to be alone but you just have no space for so. so when you've found a hiding place, you just wanna keep it a secret. you can breathe. you can sing. you can do whatever you like. you can run off to the world of your own. but sooner or later, you gotta go back to reality. duh' back to stress where problems are never ending. honestly. have you successfully resolved an issue whereas it doesnt appear again in the future in another form? oh well, i read this somewhere : 'lifes a bitch; cause if it were a whore, it'd be easy' wheres the fun if things were easy? we'd be lazy & bored. all the time. ohmaiiigawd i never knew entering the working world would open my eyes this much. learning new shit. this is good. exposure is good. shes beautiful. she just seem so pure & kind to me. 人不可貌相 i'll never truly know til i meet her. haa xoxo Labels: new shit, thinking things dreams do not come true on their own.
Sunday, February 19, 2012, 12:37 AM
currently full from dinner. arrived at the party at 7 & started the meal at 9. left at 11 & now its turning one.time flies when you're having fun. so embrace it! dont waste time. God works in mysterious ways. He may have taken something precious to you, but in return, gives you something even more useful & valuable. for me, it hurts to lose something or somebody special but im given many other better treasures. for example im glad to say i now know who really loves me most; who cares for me. who will stand by my side. who would comfort me when im sad. i have a clearer sight of what i want to achieve & whatever to work on. meanwhile watch this. im ready to move forward. although im pretty sure i'll miss certain things that are behind & think back for a bit but heck yea come at me bro. im prepared to face shits in the future. xoxo Labels: birthday(s); new shit; fun; friends on the clouds
Friday, February 17, 2012, 12:59 AM
i eat when im sad & when im sad, i eat.i also eat when im hungry, or bored. this is not good at all. suck it in; cough it out. start to numb & smile. stone. stare. next thing you know your favorite word is "WHAT??" dehydration much. what did you do for the last 5 seconds you can remember, but the next 10 seconds you'll lose it all. thank god you can think logically though you're a bit slow. you can respond but just...in a blur fashion. hahahahahahahahaa what? "you wont go back, you'll just get used to this & stay like this forever." scary shit. but false of course. xoxo Labels: new shit thinnest of all
Sunday, February 12, 2012, 6:52 PM
the world wants you to be skinnier & skinnier & skinnier.look at the fashion magazines. look at the ads online. look at posters on the streets. malls. anywhere. they say there are pills that can help. nutritional & beneficial. they are good for you. no side effects at all. THINK AGAIN. wanna know whos the skinniest? SKELETONS. if you want it, do it right. dont be silly & spoil your health in the end. & does it really matter? xoxo Labels: new shit what do you take me for?
Thursday, February 2, 2012, 2:31 AM
here i go again.waiting. hoping. wishing. making up excuses for you i thought i'd be strong enough to say "stop, this is enough" but no, now i know how difficult it is to hold on once you're attached. i dont know for sure whether you're doing it on purpose or i just happened to be so unlucky to be missing you all the time. but then again, who am i to you if time is not made for me? everywhere i turn there are loved ones who care. they genuinely do. but among those loved ones, some are special...in a case where they involved in lies in my life. i have been fooled repeatedly & thus, i try best to be cautious but when you put so much love & faith in someone, you let your guard down. & thats a stupid thing to do. angry or sad, disappointed or mad. whats done is done. you cant change the past; but be extra vigilant in the future. so, moral of the vague story is, there is always somebody that will you let you down. close or not close, family or non-family member, friend or foe, sooner or later you will find that many may disappoint, & only a handful can be trusted. ON ANOTHER NOTE: i got a free chocotop sundae cone from McD's today cause the dude behind the counter made a mistake with the order. hahaha! thats one surprise im glad about for today. xoxo Labels: new shit never satisfied
Friday, January 27, 2012, 11:39 PM
eeeeeeeeee back to work in 10 hours!gotta wake up early & put on make up. eeeeeeeeee still on holiday mood. HOW?! ohh well. i miss my work place anyways. break legs. xoxo Labels: new shit cheater cheater compulsive eater.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012, 11:40 AM
im back lazing in my own room in JB, drinking drinks & talking talks.i miss this. although it sounds horribly boring, but home is home, nothing can replace it. wahaha! today's activity: scroll a lot on tumblr, chitchat & upload photos on facebook, watch a few videos on youtube then some house keeping, lunch then off to JPO! not forgetting dinner tonight with my dad's side of the family! so life has been hectic for the past 2 months, & im happy for it. very thankful as well getting a job at topshop is superb, i miss some coworkers now. just came home from danang, vietnam yesterday afternoon. then it was off to see my granndparents in melaka & muar. slept at 3am & woke up before 10am due to the loud volume of one's speech. tsk...well, at least i woke up today. so its all good. thank you for checking up on me. also, sorry for not updating this place for a crucially long time. meanwhile, dont get mad. heres a video for you! shes amazing! + i love this song. haha HAPPY CNY. xoxo Labels: family; trips; new shit Monday, December 19, 2011, 12:35 AM
found love in a hopeless place? GOOD!! congrats. i like the effects of the video. well done but kinda ironic they ended the MV with a breakup. its just a story anyways so its fine. HELLO PEOPLE!! updates: im currently working at topshop midvalley & loss 3 kg for standing & walking around the shop for 4 hours straight. 8 hours per day. sometimes 10. woohooo!!! must keep up the good work! if you wanna drop by to see me please inform me beforehand otherwise you might miss me. i could be having my off day or breaktime. never know. Labels: friends; new shit well said
Wednesday, November 16, 2011, 10:48 PM
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Thursday, November 10, 2011, 11:06 AM
i am free. officially until the 22nd however.cause thats when the results come out! thus, im currently rotting my ass at home. im not even sure whether i got accepted for the part time jobs i applied for, they havent called back to confirm my position :/ meanwhile, LOL SPM is coming soon. goodluck. i dont wanna retake my exam! gahh!! MUST. GET. GOOD. RESULTS!! other than that, college MUST accept me!! currently in a mess now. haaaa anyways! my sis showed me something the other day & it immediately made me hyper! dont wanna show it here, instead, i wanna collect youtube view counts so click here to watch! teeheee bye! Labels: new shit LIKE A BRA.
Sunday, October 30, 2011, 12:18 AM
today imma talk about being thankful.im grateful for : 1) notes & letters my friends sent/gave to me. they spent time making & writing; expressing themselves & making effort to show love. thank you. 2) company. i may not be the best due to my current stressed out self; but thank you for putting up with me & being there when i was alone. thank you for hanging out with me & talking to me. chatting with me when i was bored & stressed out. thank you for lifting me up when i was down. thank you for tolerating my temper & nasty attitude. 3) gifts & free food. thanks for making me happy, even just a little. im thankful! ESPECIALLY FREE BADGES & SCARVES! woohoooo!! you know who you are; but you're not gonna read this. TOO BAD 4) thank you for hearing me out. for being there when i was mad. to have somebody listen to me rant is...awfully nice. 5) picking up the phone call. it was great hearing your voice; extra awesome especially when nobody is around :/ 6) cleaning the place. at a very odd time. just to be clear; thank you for cleaning. not so grateful about the time part. quite disturbing... 7) saying hi. HI READER! :D hello! thanks for dropping by. please continue doing so. you're fabulous & dont stop it! ok. on a different topic. my exams are in SIX days! shiiiiieeeeaaattt! im not as ready as i thought i would be; i keep failing the practice tests & its driving me mad cause they're just so tricky & energize consuming!! pray for me please & thank you!! xoxo Labels: new shit Saturday, October 15, 2011, 12:57 PM
this shall be interesting to read.im not myself today. i woke up a different person. i woke up feeling like a loser & undetermined to do anything. i refuse to do anything productive. i've spent my morning sleeping til 10 then doing useless things such as... talking back as a spoiled kid would. truly grateful of being thought of but yet; unthankful for being disobeyed. u did not listen when i made myself clear. i warn people of things that i wouldnt want to happen to me or to them. somehow nobody listens. which is totally fine by them; but not by me. how do i feel? theres no reason to feel down but somehow i just do. i shouldnt give a shit but i feel upset. i feel sad. i feel mad. while i should be glad. ironic how they rhyme. im sorry for the way i spoke. however, not so apologetic after all the things u back. u werent there for me. instead, u pushed me closer to a grave. im not joyful of that; rather, i regret listening to u cause i now know u helped, in a bad way. im now sinking. sinking down a large well of selfish misery. what doesnt kill u makes u stronger. thus dont piss me off cause i wont die anytime soon. u'd just be training me how to handle crap like yours. as i said at the top; im not myself. im not positive for now. i shall regain my right attitude later; thats for sure. but hey, u gotta fall in order to pick yourself up. signing out without kisses, hugs or smile. bye. Labels: new shit berstressing
Wednesday, October 12, 2011, 12:32 AM
as it is getting closer & closer to my exam; i progressively feel more & more nervous.yet, increasingly angsty. towards homework & revision. annoyed. often. really fast. its all because of stress. WHAIIIIIIIIIIII im done. too much info here. LOL ok bye ): Labels: new shit brainwashing bitch
Thursday, October 6, 2011, 9:42 PM
I AM HERE TO BLOGGGGGGGGG!!!hello JUST FYI; big shout to dear esther yew who told me to update my blog the past week but i just got so lazy. LOL THIS IS FOR U, ESTHER MUAHAHHAHAHHAHA alotta crap has been going recently. like; my turning of 18 years old. my sis going to london for her 2nd + 3rd year of law. fucked up shit in school. seriously fucked up. FYI when i curse; i mean it. 100% defined. haaa pfft. maafkan. alot of parties attended due to the past term break hari raya; birthday celebrations; gatherings etc 29days left til my exam! im so nervoussssssss i cant sleep sometimes; im going insomniac! then i end up worrying til i enter my dreams unknowingly then waking up later than i should in the mornings. i miss the times i had last year. everything went so smooth & peaceful. but this year, oh gosh, full splats of true colors like paintball fights. HI KIM; i miss u :) if u're reading this. OIH DONT OVERSPEND hahahhahahahhahah love u all. thank you for reading. & checking up on me. yes my previous suggestion (not rule) to leave in your names was made so i could know who visits, i'd say thank you to you but hey...not all are cooperating thus, thanks to ONLY those who mentioned themselves! JEREMY SHANE MELANIE PUILING KOKHOE MAURICE JAKE ESTHER VISHELLE CHRISTINE DLL hahahahhah i cant list all but i have listed the recent ones!! STUCK WITH MATHS!! ahhhhhhhhhh save meeeee!!! LOL dont bother trying. you'd fail!! JK. we'll see about that xoxo Labels: birthday(s); new shit; fun; friends malicious much ?
Monday, September 5, 2011, 1:55 AM
hahaahha feels like i do this as a monthly thing now.well, at least i do this as a monthly thing now. hello readers! im suppose to be sleeping but im not; cause im here. writing! kk. first things first : my holiday was excellent FYI - loved that my bestest friends came over to watch movies & we had pizzas!! - got my nails done. pretty lovable except for the part where one nail cracked & the quarter top had to be removed. - happy to see my primary school mates again. sang K & off pitched in front of everybody...haaa....good times... - horrible bosses really had horrible bosses. real douchebags tho it was quite enjoyable. - raya was gr8. went to visit a former teacher. hope to do so again next year - last-minute decision to visit my siblings in KL on friday & i arrived home 2 hours ago jumping, swimming, shopping, playing. OOH! met scouts from Kim's group. fun to hang out with them. i had a great time overall. kinda bummed out i gotta remove my pretty pretty nail polish & wake up early for school tomorrow but that doesnt mean the fun stops here. til then. see ya! xoxo Labels: family; trips; outing sticking red Ps
Sunday, August 14, 2011, 11:11 PM
PHEWWWW!had a great day today. shout out to August babies: hello & happy birthday! i feel incredibly happy today. like i found peace. however im very aware that it wont last for long so im embracing the moment being transferring positive energy to you! HI HI HI HI HI SMILE SMILE SMILE you are beautiful & dont let anything think otherwise. unless you're bitter person who complains & bitches about others all the time...then...not so beautiful... eat right. sleep enough. drink plenty of fluids & exercise! think positive & stay that way! all the problems in the world can be solved. you just gotta try harder & kick ass. YES YOU ARE VERY BAD ASS THUS, YOU CAN DO IT. YOU SHALL SUCCEED IN LIFE. in nothing evil or bad though...cause they'd fail haaa... 加油! to unknown strangers who visit my blog & say dumb unpleasant things. im telling you off nicely. PLEASE STOP IT...cause...your silly little remarks might backfire & hey. you'd lose face. although you can go anonymous all the time & i have no idea who u are, being a coward & everything...GOD IS WATCHING YOU... o.o hahahahhaa so stop it. saying hi would do. then leave if you have nothing nice to say,. thats all. thank you. OK! back to my day... I MET RUSSELL LEE! the guy who write ghost stories in singapore. HES SUPER FRIENDLY! he even taught me how he handshakes people. LOL maybe i'll make a video to show it to you one day :) till then. xoxo HAVE FUN AT SCHOOL TOMORROW! if you have classes, that is... Labels: birthday(s); new shit; fun; friends dropping doritos
Monday, August 8, 2011, 10:24 PM
hi guys.i've been meaning to ask y'all these questions : WHO ARE U & WHY DO U VISIT MY BLOG? seriously. u dont leave your name. make a change. LEAVE YOUR NAME TODAY ! p/s dont forget to tell why u're here. thanks! & also; i wanna make a video. but of what idk either :/ any ideas? please... oohh & if u suggest nothing, dont expect any results. SO RECOMMEND SOMETHING & LEAVE YOUR NAME. suggest as many as you want. ahahahahahhahahaahha procrastination nation SAVE ME! ok xoxoxo Labels: thinking things sponge my room? NO.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011, 12:02 AM
words of a discouraged daughter.IM GONNA WASTE ALL YOUR MONEY BECAUSE WHATEVER I DO IS NOT GONNA SATISFY YOU NOR MAKE YOU PROUD THEREFORE WHATEVER I DO IS ALSO KNOWN AS A WASTE OF TIME. IM WASTING MY YOUTH BECAUSE YOU DONT SEE HOW I SPEND MY TIME IS BENEFICIAL IN ANY WAY. YOU NOD YOUR HEAD & LET ME BE BECAUSE WE ARE AT THE POINT WHERE WE DONT KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE ANYMORE. I DONT LISTEN BECAUSE YOU DONT TALK. YOU DONT TALK BECAUSE I DONT LISTEN. NEW FOUND DISCOVERIES I SHARE, YOU DO NOT CARE NOR GIVE A CRAP. YOU WONT AT LEAST PARTICIPATE. YOU SEE THINGS THAT ARE FAR AHEAD SO OFTEN, YOU FORGOT ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. GO FORTH & IGNORE. IM ALSO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY WHERE I SIT FOR MY SAT EXAM & FAIL because thats what i do all the time apparently & EVENTUALLY MOVE OUT OF THIS PLACE. HELL YEAH I'LL MISS HOME BUT SHIT NO I DONT WANNA BE SAD ANYMORE. guess shes done here. more will come in the future. haaa Labels: thinking things forgot to title this
Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 10:38 PM
hello you!if u still happen to com by now & then to check out whether i have any new posts or not which is highly unlikely because i dont blog on a schedule; i just write whatever i want whenever i want so...HELLO & THANK YOU! emm IM BACK FROM TAIWAN! betcha didnt know that eh! heee or you did. because u're family. or a close friend. again. HI! here are some pictures for u! & also...      check this cover out. its by my friend kenneth & im pretty impressed with the song. its well sung! enjoy & cheers. xoxo Labels: fun; friends; new shit, MV koala at the movies
Wednesday, July 6, 2011, 9:42 PM
oh well hello; i've been kinda busy lately thus no new entries but HERES ONE!yayyy!!! its july already. a new month. time flies fast :\ looking back & thinking of the fun times i had; i miss them plenty but im also looking forward to the future too. u should too. imma continue to be MIA for a while...probably 2 weeks or so but hey, u should be used to it already since i dont blog as often i used to hahaha tc & be careful of racist cops when wearing yellow. Labels: nothing fun frisbee
Sunday, June 26, 2011, 10:59 PM
i had fun yesterday.i had fun today. i had fun this weekend. but no. u are not happy about it. but no. seeing is not believing, no, u think i dont study enough. i do i do i do study hard. in school. i do i do i do play hard too. right in front of u. everytime i inform u im heading out, u sulk. u give me the face & a nod of "approval" to avoid seeing that expression i choose not to tell u because thats the only way heck no u'd just get angrier & gimme another type of face. either way im damned to see that face? that unhappy expression of yours as if nothing i do is ever good enough for u oh yea...readers. take this as a lesson that parents are NEVER gonna stop doing that. they just expect expect expect then later on they set'em so high its tiring to keep up so u let yourself go for a while. relax a bit. NO U CANT. disappointment. great... either way. whatever i friggin do is never good enough for u. yes thats how i feel right now. im not ready for certain things; gimme time to prepare please? problems pop up when the last one was settled. its especially crappy when they gang up on u like camisado. haaaa... good night! Labels: new shit; fun; friends real? or just faking real?
Monday, June 20, 2011, 11:17 PM
just wanted to give you food for thought.when we get disappointed, we tell ourselves to not expect so high of something or somebody next time. but whenever i do that, i cry & feel all bad because things didnt end my way, i cant bear to expect something low. not to be a total perfectionist which i am by nature & yes, i've been going against mother nature for some time now...why go for something low when you can receive something at a higher quality. i guess. we console ourselves to say we'll seek something low next time so we dont get disappointed anymore. then when we're ok, we'll be like : AIM FOR THE SKY! mhmm. so whether you achieve it, in the end, its not really all in your hands. most of it yes, taking situations into your hands...but no, not 100% lifes full with ups & downs. few people stay; most leave. its worse when they go without even saying good bye. xoxo Labels: thinking things partyin partyin partyin yeah!
Sunday, June 12, 2011, 11:40 PM
ahhh im so sick of cake.& ice-cream & well, mainly food. ahahhahahah been stuffing myself for the past 2 weeks of the term break thats about it. eating & running around town to town because i cant stay still. i'd turn rotten & decompose in my imagination. went to many many boring places with fun friends thus the trips became super! its the company that counts got a tan got many cuts & bruises. worth it i'd say. they might turn into scars...which is horrible but then. looking at it as a reminder; that aint so bad remembering how much fun u had & how fabulous your peers are. not very keen to wake up early tomorrow morning but im looking forward to seeing my friends in school again. whoopwhoop! 100 points for manic classmates! xoxo Labels: trips; new shit purple straw mustache.
Thursday, June 2, 2011, 9:46 PM
mmm.eehmm. blehh. sore throat alert. its so itchy! i wanna scratch it but the only way to do so is by coughing really hard! but that didnt stop me from eating all those snacks. heeee its the holidays & i was so bored today i couldnt stand it, i went to coffee bean & THANK GOD i had awesome friends to accompany me. too bad you left a few minutes before i arrive, kanpuiling. but its fine. we'll catch up real soon! went to the warehouse sale today. loads of cheap stuff! my new red shoes gave me a hard time walking around & i became quite moody. mm...i had fun anyways, i left happy but had no energy to show it. hahaha i was lucky too! got a prize from the lucky draw! xoxo Labels: new shit; fun; friends i read minds
Monday, May 23, 2011, 7:29 PM
i am eating dinner as i am writing this.my hands are shaking. im so hungry+tired im shaking. i find it unbelievable. but its a fact. haha thats was life update #1 upcoming next; update #2. i am addicted to this song! just for the record. i am 100% heterosexual BUT BUT BUT i must say must...need...want...whatever... about the corset Dev wore made her boobs so damn sexy woh! in other words... ... ... ...would be too crude & unlady-like to mention. *wink dont tell me, as a boy (if you are one), YOU DID NOT LOOK AT HER LUSCIOUS LADY LUMPS. even as i, a straight girl (once again); DID. haaa cant run now, can you...muahahahhahaha moreover, i bet you havent even watched the video! haaa... & now i totally know you're soooooo gonna be on the alert for her boobs now. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA i've got you now. DONT. BOTHER. ESCAPING. chillax. i wont tell. though im aware you might. cehh...cheater. nevermind. #4. THE GARBAGE COLLECTORS ARE MIA. its been more than 10 days...big black bags are piling at the sides of large garbage bins by the road sides. maggot maggot maggots. just you wait. they are manifesting while you're not watching. #5 im having chicken rice for dinner. currently. so Asian yea yea i know. ok & lastly #6; today i learned not to highlight my mistakes. got that right. xoxo Labels: MV; new shit more sores by whores
Thursday, May 19, 2011, 10:05 PM
staying neutral is difficult.it takes a lot of practice to stay balanced. a little too much of something & you're done. its over. you fall. i guess in my case... right now...is... the balance of myself. im mentally strong i admit. you may think otherwise; thats your opinion. im not gonna sue you haha but i see myself as being emotionally weak currently. im effected way easily compared to last time. i was much bubblier & carefree. i used to smile a lot. however. nowadays. shits are just everywhere. note : im writing all these to think clearly & at the same time, allowing you to see it too. yea yea. you'll probably go running to your friend sitting next to you gossiping what a mess im currently being. because you're a big meanie who cant keep your mouth shut. this post doesnt even regard anything about you but hell, why not screw up this girl's life even more. if you do. seriously. may you burden yourself with the guilt to the extend you cant sleep EVER or just bring it down the grave. its fine. i dont know who you are anyways. totally harmless to talk cock behind my ass right? yea. ok. but if you dont. thank you. your discretion is appreciated. now inform me you've read what you read here instead of just stalking me. moving on... with life. i mean. haaa you thought i was gonna write more? you wish. ok fine granted. life life life. i guess im struggling to recover from the past. & move on. & the crappy part is whenever i think im ok, im fine, im dong great! i doubt myself again. its so frustrating & im pretty sure you know what i mean. & if you dont...YOU'RE NOT FROM THIS PLANET NOW...ARE YOU!? friends are family & family are friends. when family cant be there for you; your friends appear. when your friends disappoint you; you can always turn to your family. except. my family is always busy. heh. i'll disturb em anyways. or not. its not that bad come to think of it. my situation could be far worse. im thankful its not. it comes across to me as brand new thats why im being such a pain in the brain. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. i wouldnt say that fits to every situation or issue. for example: you survive a car accident but you turn into a vegetable...how are you stronger? maybe if you somehow you mysteriously own psychic powers & able to move objects with your mind..then yea. ok. you're definitely super stronger. i'll rest my case. i need to be inspired. i took a break from writing for a couple of minutes & now my fingers are back in action. so. yea. i need to be inspired. i just figured the answer to my problems. told you my mental state is perfectly functioning. though im feeling sad because im lost. thats all. wish me luck on my...conquest? HAHAHAHHAHA NO. say whutt?? good luck on your life too. may you... achieve to find solutions to your problems too. xoxo Labels: new shit, thinking things essay unity
Tuesday, May 10, 2011, 10:56 PM
"When parents are preoccupied or away, children will seek attention else where, usually in undesirable surroundings with people who will recognize & accept them."true story. everybody has parents. present or not. they are there. they were there. they exist. they existed. be thankful for what you have; it might just slip away from your possession & vanish into thin air or happen to be lying in a coffin when you were blinking. mend it before it bends. dont blame somebody else for your own mistakes. dont curse & hate somebody else because their life is better than yours. especially that somebody did you no harm or caused you no pain. you should be ashamed. you should feel sorry. you should apologize. dont you have any humility? they say forgive & forget. it is, in my opinion : difficult to forgive; but harder to forget. try. try harder. try your best. put effort into it. nobody will ever notice it if you dont do so. dont you realize my words of encouragement? dont you realize you're granted a second chance? dont you know what you're seeing? think. you'll get it only if you think. thats what your brain is for. GO FIGURE. Labels: thinking things grow up or grow old?
Monday, May 9, 2011, 7:56 PM
new shoes hurt.pfff...i'll get used to em. but one thing i'll never get used to : seeing a tiny wiggly white & short ...worm on my 2nd piece of sandwich. makes me wonder...did i eat one on my first? slightly...traumatized. well...no. not really. I HAVE GUTS! fact : worms are protein. in the form of being alive & moving....doesnt really help though. not my version of wonderland... its so adult-ized? i prefer the one where you get to drink tea with the 2 MHs & all creatures talk. this chicks pretty badass. heee thats all for tonight folks! Labels: new shit #royalwedding me 200000x per minute
Friday, April 29, 2011, 11:36 PM
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Wednesday, April 27, 2011, 10:48 PM
guess what. im feeling better today.im eating well. my mood is good. just need more sleep to cure my dark eye circles... & just as i thought i could mention how amazing i feel...something dumb popped up. good news is my driving went well today. YAY ME! bad news is i still managed killed the car. MY SISTER JUST MADE ME REALIZED SOMETHING. the queen is gonna denounce her throne :( i somehow feel like i will miss her I HAVE NO FRIGGIN IDEA WHY =.= check it out here ok. signing off now. BTW big shout out to you for reading & commenting here. i really appreciate your thoughtfulness? heee XOXO Labels: new shit DONT MAKE ME EMPHASIZE ON THIS PLEASE
Sunday, April 24, 2011, 9:00 PM
#nowplaying : E.T. - katy perry.i love her. so much. big fan. but i dont buy her CDs. what a confession. haa i'd love to meet her one day. take a photo with her or something be featured in one of her music videos! that'd be totally rad. oh well. another item of my fantasies listed out. anyways, that wasnt the agenda of this post tonight. my friend's facebook account got hacked. & i knew because she opened up a brand new one & re-added me as a friend. of course i accepted & asked her what happened. that was when i knew & realized; if that didnt happen, i wouldnt be talking to her now. so i guess things just happen for a reason. whether pleasant or awful, theres a reason behind it. which makes me think about something else. if i didnt approach her to ask her what had happened to her other account; would she talk to me right after i accepted her friend request? in other words, would anybody talk to me if i didnt talk to em first? i guess not. because, from what i've been going through...the super close people that i grew up with dont...bother...to ask how i am. oh well. maybe im PMS-ing or some hormone is messing with me but seriously, they're too busy to ask how i am. i guess this is what i get when im alone in a house for too long. how pathetic. perhaps this is the phase of life where you get a boyfriend. ugh. i dont know. im just typing to entertain you & by you, i mean nobody, because nobody visits here. pfff...alright. thanks. bye. Labels: new shit get out by the end of this year.
Saturday, April 23, 2011, 8:57 PM
i just i blog whenever i feel sad, upset or mad...or just lonely.you dont often see happy posts now, do you? i preferably talk to my friends about whats bothering me but i just im not emotionally ready to spill yet. so. imagine the scenario of me sitting at the driver's seat. handling a manual vehicle. screwing up the clutch constantly...either i dont step hard enough on it or i let it go too quickly. then of course; the engine dies out. FYI this crappy luck happened to me at least 5 times today & i was criticized to be doing worse than the last time. yes, its only my 2nd time & i couldnt manage to just laugh it off anymore with my blue spirit & with an old grumpy exhausted instructor who lost patience in me as he started his day early in the morning. i teared up. yes. oh yes. i did. i focused all my attention to his ramblings about how horrible my state was & how the bottom part of my vision started to blur as fluid accumulated on my lower eyelids. i cried. quietly. of course. he didnt stop adding salt to the wound until he really noticed me. ahh...those hurtful words. couple of mean nicknames here & there...handful of criticism. i cant blame him for doing his job. i cant blame other people for staring at the tears that rolled down my cheeks. i dont blame anybody else. but myself. "i need more practice" i thought to myself. then it occurred to me everybody in the family drives an auto car so...hell. finding the right vehicle is kinda difficult now. oh great. i refuse to wipe my face moreover, i refuse to look at him. i guess i cried because...i was angry at myself. this was an actual situation where i felt humiliated like never before, & the last time i could remember feeling this embarrassed was before i turned 12; when i was still in primary school. well of course, i certainly did cry a few other times after graduating from primary school. but im not gonna mention them. its always nice to come back home & talk to a loving family member about your bad day & then they'd cheer you up & tease you lightly a bit, making you feel better. but instead of all that lovely. i have you : the internet. my family is...busy & im lonely. i really am. now that i've admit it, alone in this huge house with colorful walls fail to cheer me up, turning to the phone sucks cause phone bills arent easy to keep it low so...HELLO INTERNET. i guess this is what happens to me when i dont see proper friends or when the only family member in the same building doesnt communicate enough. a part of me wants to do something silly. something stupid. something irrational & childish. because, its labelled F-U-N. the other part of me just wants to weep more & more until i fall asleep & enter a world of my sub-conscience. i'd perhaps feel better when i wake up. however, reality is reality. whether you like it or not; shits will be there if you dont clean it up, problems will stay if you dont solve em. to save time; of course. i turn to the 3rd option : dont cry & dont run. literally. im actually running to you now. but hey! well done for reading all these words. tiny & many they are; give yourself a pat on the back for reading so much. & thank you. for staying with me. xoxo Labels: new shit TGIF
Friday, April 22, 2011, 10:32 PM
frowning because you just remembered you were behind on grades & you feel like life is getting ahead of you.but i say to you; SMILE. & rethink what goals you have before you. & remember you have friends & family who love you dearly & recall what mistakes you made in the past & how you promised not to redo em again. ever. & go back to outside-school activities. ITS A BIG FAT MUST. "oh no. why so fast? why so soon?" you let it pass by just like that. thats why. you have the ability to control yourself you got the right to your own actions. NOW TAKE CONTROL! a due-date is there for you to set a time limit to achieve something. its a pretty useful thing actually. you just gotta learn how to use it right. clear clear clearing my mind with hobbies. scream healthy with me. xoxo Labels: new shit ones 18 & the other, 50.
Saturday, April 16, 2011, 11:51 PM
guess what!IM HAPPY TODAY. huuurraaaayyyy today was a beautiful day. seriously. got up & got dressed. head out for breakfast with kellie eonnie & joyce! saw ex-school mates & then enjoyed my meal. went to scouts. did some critical judging. fun silly photo snapping & then fast food lunch at McD's. BEST OF FRIENDS UNITED! too bad one was absent. sad case. unplanned shopping done. & i did a small tiny part to help japan cab ride to birthday dinner party with an unexpected almost-car accident on the way arrived safely & had soup. took more pictures & saw recorded live performances. paid & left feeling satisfied. today was a good day. hoping tomorrow would be good too. maybe better? we'll see. goodnight world. wishing you a fabulous day tomorrow spending time productively & preferably with your loved one(s). xoxo Labels: birthday(s); shopping; food, new shit im sibling-less in JB
Wednesday, April 13, 2011, 12:20 AM
missed my afar family members.so i ringed my 3rd sis. & guess what. IM A LONELY PERSON. alone in a huge house with 3 dogs i dont bother to look at unless its feeding time or i just happened to see em through the kitchen window. i have things. materialistic things. that avail me to communicate with people in the outside world. *ouch* the computer. cell phone. house phone? i guess thats it. haaa story of my life. at home. im outgoing. hell yeah. who says no? i just dont have a certain massively brilliant amount of freedom yet so til then; phone calls & net chats for the time being. xoxo Labels: new shit visions & missions
Friday, April 8, 2011, 6:27 PM
today, i saw a dead body. COD : gun shot to the chest. i guess.im not bothered. it was a robbery apparently...dont know why the fella had to die though. & then...i wasnt there so i dont know. RIP stranger. ok. bye! Labels: new shit tip tap top hop flop
Tuesday, April 5, 2011, 10:02 PM
living in your delusional paranoia.they say all of you in the world are same, but my heart truly doubts it. you're not the one who you say you are. you dont practice what you preach but you dont give a shit either. you say i dont listen but you never did. i dont have to shout; likewise for you. open up your ears: i hate you & your fucked up lies. your theories are not all accurate yet you still spread em like experimented facts. calling me 12 & naive when you're the ones whose a joke. dont kid, its against my nature to listen to your advice. up or down, all you do is provoke especially right after i turned down my cries. HAVENT YOU EMBARASSED ME ENOUGH?! Labels: new shit the blond in blue
Saturday, April 2, 2011, 11:09 PM
Alice. oh Alice. sometimes i wish to join you down the rabbit holeexpanding & shrinking without permanent stretch marks; meet talking creatures & wonder around the forest converse with them speaking plants & tell them what human are. no, we are not weeds. but of course, how could i possibly forget to... drop by to visit White Rabbit if hes not too busy. nope, we're not monsters either. we certainly do not get to grow big then small again; tall then short again back in our world. smoke some pipe with Caterpillar & ask for his real name. expecting to answer his question"WHO-ARE-YOU?" i already prepared answers in my head. you'd be surprise how bold i can be. then of course, the riddles & tricks. if you were me, we'd wave goodbye when he vanishes. but no worries, he'll be back. just not in the form as he was. have tea with the Mad Hatter & March Hare. celebrating our unbirthdays & laughing our worries away. maybe meet Time & convince him to slow down. or even go back. just a little. perhaps snap a photo with the Cheshire cat & learn potion spells from the White Queen. Stand by your side when you snap back at the Red & escape together when it all was gonna fall apart. actually. i can. but only in my head. imagination is a very strong power. but controlling it takes skill & mental strength. do it wrong & you're stuck in wonderland forever. goodnight world. ALICE! hope to meet you one day...in my dreams... O.O hahaha xoxo Labels: trips; new shit cant nobody can save me.
Sunday, March 27, 2011, 11:39 PM
THEY ARE NEVER LEAVING ME.who? what?! HELL YEAH. my dark eye circles. they love me to death. shit. its like being stalked & you've caught your stalker stalking but ITS TOO LATE TO REMOVE IT. hahahahah whatthecrap is going on in my head... THING #2 the brown brown thingies on my teeth. dentist said its there cause i didnt brush my teeth properly when i was young. definitely stuck forever... #3. NIGHTMARES. fun fact of karyn for the day. I ALWAYS HAVE DREAMS WHEN I SLEEP. & mind you, dreams that are not sweet. maybe occasionally...one. or two. OUT OF A WHOLE YEAR'S HOURS OF SNOOZE. story of my life. secrets out. i love sleeping...but i never get enough rest. HAIHHHH~ reason : very wild dreams. EVERY.TIME.I.SLEEP. its annoying sometimes =.= what to do. xoxox Labels: crap dont scold the innocent. please.
Saturday, March 26, 2011, 10:30 AM
bwuahaahahhahaha i just realized its one more week to go then March ends, & also...i didnt write anything during Feb. i dont care. really. im sorry. like the previous time(s) i've mentioned, i have no heart here anymore. its time for something new.having this blog for a long time already...has it been...almost 3 years? oh well. findmeifyoucan. bye. Labels: crap the result of being angry
Saturday, March 12, 2011, 8:12 PM
I DONT LIKE BEING ANGRY!because; once you're angry, whatever crap you doing/making...it will turn out ugly why? because what you project will come from your heart. once your angry, you dont focus right & you project negativity from your soul for the world to see...the world will see your ugliness. NOBODY WANTS TO BE UGLY RIGHT?! seriously; would you wanna be an ugly person? NO! OF COURSE NOT! so a way to avoid that, dont be angry. focus on happy happy thoughts. BLAHBLAHBLAH im so not happy now. im ugly now. because im angry. i dont like being angry. i dont wanna be ugly. TOOBADICANTHELPITNOW ROOOOARRRRRRR!!! okthanksbbye :( Labels: crap do something.
Saturday, January 29, 2011, 12:37 PM
i fear.of many things. one for example; BEING BORED. i loathe feeling bored. the next thing you'll feel is the sense of accomplishing nothing. ok, not you...ME. i'd wanna kill myself for doing nothing. gosh. I REALLY HATE BEING BORED. its a big large ball of time wasting. pff. sorry puiling! i really got no mood to tell about my trip to HK. i'll do it in person Labels: new shit UH-OH.
Thursday, January 13, 2011, 8:06 PM
MY BLOG DIED.sorry. i'll revive it soon. but then again; nobody bothers to drop by to read it so... the consideration of shutting it down is on my mind. tumblr is funner. honestly. hmmmm... Labels: new shit #488
Tuesday, December 14, 2010, 11:17 AM
 i went for the audition. yeah! but i didnt get short listed cause im old maybe? will be receiving my results next year. thats a very long time...well, not really. UP : i met celine & ida & other new chicks & nice people they are...wahahaha &&& i sang well during the audition; & i know that because they requested a 2nd song. whoopie! but... DOWN : i sorta shut off the judges. i just said thank you+went back to my standing spot when i was done when i shoulda see whether they want me to do a 3rd song. aiyooooo...so, i blew my chance of being shot listed, but its ok. 4 weeks to go for my results!  I went to Kukup with my primary schoolmates! they awesome & you oughta know :) we went boat riding, karaoke in the living room, mahjong (not me), fishing...played alot of silly games & ate! saw fishes & walked in a forest of mangrove trees. the friggin place is very windy in my POV! oh well; tonights boogie night & we gotta dance all night long. hahahahah JK. OH! new video is out! yea~ i can be your teenage dream & now you want me to be your girl. that was a hint. not an actual statement. sorry puiling; this is all i've got now. this post is short but super sweet. xoxo Labels: fun; friends; new shit thick sticky chocolate syup
Sunday, December 5, 2010, 5:14 PM
 what do you think of that dress? ITS BEAUTIFUL isnt it? hee!! its alicia's. i had a sleepover at her place & we had fun. few days later we managed to produce this; ENJOY! sitting at coffee bean at changi airport. cailing - fiona - farhan - maurice. babe on the left is currently in switz. missing her much. poor fio had an upset tummy & barfed a few times. im glad shes all better after resting on maurice's sofa bed. yeap, another sleep over. hahaha i must say that red couch is really comfortable!  then the following day which was saturday AKA yesterday we went to orchard then bugis & got some ice-cream during tea time. gr8 times baby...gr8 times & i got scouted! for being a model...super stunned at first; i didnt understand what the lady was saying & before she left, she gave me a name card & got my info. so...yea...im considering. its always been a dream to be honest. it'd be fantastic if i actually earn $$$ through it & not get harassed. xoxo Labels: fun; friends; new shit rude fuss.
Monday, November 29, 2010, 1:00 AM
 1AM. goodmorning dear reader. HELLO. how u doing? hi. i remember specifically what Rachel darling said when i mentioned i got ready in 5minutes when i woke up late & forced myself to rush. "huh. 5 minutes...that means you didnt shit & now you're full of shit. literally. *me being speechless* what a great greeting right?" its true. i didnt pooooooo but i did. afternoon. its personal. LOL i dont know why im explaining myself. SCREAM YAY FOR MOTHER NATURE!! another thing. cailing, we'll miss you much although you're still in Malaysia...for now. heeeheee i took a GORGEOUS picture of her with her camera. [probably upload it on tumblr; look out for my twitter notification] waiting for her to upload it. its a masterpiece really >.< & then walked around everywhere & took pictures. alot alot alot of pictures. heres one from dinner. us girls just happened to wear all white tops coincidentally. great minds think alike!  last week was the last day of school AKA zoey's birthday; we pretty much hung out alot after school hours at the board game cafe & also they went bowling...but i didnt join em cause i had other stuff to get to. i miss my schoolmates already. hahaha they're fun youngsters! & im the oldest sister. heh~  estelle + zoey + me. birthday girl turned 10. & her enormous cake was delicious! & happy birthday to esther & jiahui too. 3 birthdays in a row. haha holidays have officially started for me. its happy. & shitty at the same time due to certain impolite people/person. sheesh. some just never seem to grow up....excluding peterpan. i understand his situation. xoxo to you. Labels: birthday(s); new shit;, new shit what am i gonna do?
Sunday, November 21, 2010, 12:06 AM
the connection is terrible. everything moves slowly. especially youtube videos. moreover my fingers cant get along...in a way...they keep pressing the wrong letter & i gotta backspace multiple times. communication + co-orperation.very important. very much aware about that since a long time ago but while hosting my school's Awards Night last thursday made me realize "oh why cant they do things properly?!" im relief its over. many fellow students feel aimless when its finished. at least one i know does. haa but for me, worry was right behind relief. question for me right now is; HOW LONG AM I GONNA STAY HERE? i find it a struggle as i am very much behind grades due to my late transfer + old age. i cant keep up as well as the others & what if im done here & ready to go, which path do i take? which school would i go? will i be making a mistake? if i just happen to make one, i'll be super duper uber doomed. as a 50% perfectionist, i expect a lot from myself & especially only myself. pros & cons for everything. im motivated to do things but then again, will it be the right one for me? being busy & incredibly hyped up for events then suddenly...nothing. sudden changes for not good! gotta balance it out. i need guidance & support. help?  miracle hall. hah. a miracle did happen.praise God. but, make it happen again please? for me this time. Labels: new shit i have not yet been to my art exhibition.
Saturday, November 13, 2010, 10:33 PM
alot of shits have been falling on me these few days.the weather isnt a big deal but the people...& their attitudes...im going to lose it. pretty proud to say im fine now. mmm...but then again, RANT ALERT. just dont give me your emo-zombie mood when i talk to you when i have not offended you & did not ask anything from you. an opinion is an opinion; take it or leave it. its not compulsory to accept it. whatever others point out this their business but how you react is within your control. therefore, CONTROL YOUR ATTITUDE PLEASE. likewise to myself; i need brushing up. secondly, if i've troubled you to help me, thank you very much. i am truly grateful, i really am. but FYI that doesnt mean you can take advantage of me & boss me around, go against your word then lecture me about some other shit thats not the point on what we're arguing about. LALALALA~~ imma hot mess cause cobra starship said so. im go now. xoxo Labels: new shit sucks when you dont have the answer
Monday, November 8, 2010, 10:37 PM
 shit im nervous+worried. after attending my sis' convocation yesterday; my other sis made me realize: what am i gonna do when i grow up? there. i just got angry. & went quiet too. then awhile later i asked myself what am i angry at? answer : for not knowing what to do in the future. all she did was try to help me but i guess im still mad at myself for being clueless. oh well. im OK now. still keen to something thats not approving to my father. my heart is here but he wants it...some where else. CRAP. i like this song very much! makes you feel powerful...MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAA! fixing the computer on my own this afternoon. jo ann giving me the link to WGM-yonghwa couple just now. these are a few things that made my day today. theres better things to be happy at than be angry/sad/upset about. REMEMBER THAT. good luck to us! for the obsticles ahead of us in the future. cheers! xoxo Labels: family; trips; new shit 没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌
Monday, November 1, 2010, 11:30 PM
 born 7 years ago & knows how to say "ooh-la-la sexy bra". au revoir xoxo. Labels: MV; new shit laugh, cry & suffer.
Sunday, October 31, 2010, 10:35 PM
i can smile; but not in front of you.i only frown because you made me so. im sorry but i dont wanna be like this either. cant imagine anybody wishing to be in this state. you dont apologize or ask why you just carry on like nothing happened again & again you do this all the time yesterday was a blast today was a nightmare & tomorrow you dont recall a thing. since you're doing this every single time i might as well start getting used to this seriously or else the neighborhood will hear me once more. shut off & run away...yeah. that'd be fun. only if i had my driver's licence & passport you wont see me later. i love you but you make me hate you. you told me 'history repeats itself' i truly understand that now. conclusion, you ask? so whats the point? you'll do this again next week. happy halloween guys; my weekend was a dramatic nightmare but also a super wonderful time. what about yours? xoxo. i wanna hear all about it before you know mine. Labels: new shit dont make my ears bleed.
Sunday, October 17, 2010, 10:52 PM
bunk beds. wasnt used to sleeping on em; especially at a 7 feet above ground level height. FUN! but not used to it...thus causing me to lack proper sleep in camp & i turned out to be super tired when i came back home. the dark picture below is dearest estelle & i on my bed. MUAHAHAHHAHAAHAAHAAHHAA DAEBAK!  ok. long legs, daisy dukes. makes a man go...? should all parents go f--king anxious/over-reactive when theirr daughters wear shorts out! SHUT OFF M**. grrrrrr you're the reason why i cant smile at/with/around you anymore. you didnt go out last time when you were my age not because you had no freedom, but because you didnt want to...you were shy & somewhat anti-social. that doesnt big-time mean i will follow your sad sad lonely footsteps cause they're pathetic! ITS PAINFUL BEING ALONE & FRIENDLESS. dont tell me what you couldnt do in the past because most of them are lies. i dont wanna end up like you. & dont friggin think about match-making me; im married! ON FACEBOOK. you're not that a good role model anyways. LIM YUHAN IS A SUPERMAN! 林友汉是个超人! he flews & fell & hes fine! & im the B.I.T.C.H. in disguise. ironic spontaneous-ness. paramore is still my remedy. hayley wiliams; thank you for writing ignorance. I MISS MY FAMILY MUCH, i shall go to KL next month!! teehee xoxo time to wake up; september ended.
Sunday, October 3, 2010, 11:45 PM
time to blog. for real. just now i open & closed this blogger : new post page twice.like they say, third times the charm. my weekend was exciting; i went to around town & here & there. tebrau city area twice. one for a movie, go watch EatPrayLove; it was amazing. simple but pleasant. the other time was for miss KMH's sweet 16. time flies...& i was late to her party 135minutes late ( meihong im so sorry ) but we all had fun. they played with water while i hid myself & stayed away from those soaking wet + soapy people...HER CAKE WAS DELICIOUS ... i've never had a baskin&robbins cake before. teehee~ later that night she & some others purposely hugged me which caused my hair+back to smell like the soap. after that i checked out her room while she was in the shower & took some photos wearing her sunnies&belt. *the internet connection is suddenly * the photo below was taken by her friendly maid hahahahaha  happy to be there but all fun things always come to an end. i left her house after spending an hour at her place mom picked me up & went home. words of wisdom for today : DO NOT BE ANGRY...cause then you'll curse & say shit loads of things you dont mean & hurt people. love life always. xoxo Labels: birthday(s); new shit; fun; friends hah..mom smells like butter cookies
Monday, September 27, 2010, 10:55 PM
never happens. no. just doesnt happen. although, it deosnt seem that bad to me as long as i napped in the afternoon...which was funny, in a way. i woke up 2 hours later with my body position rotated 180degrees. & i was freaking blur; especially when i couldnt remember what i dreamt of sheesh. i hate that. you wake up clueless from what shit just happened in your head & everythings so confusing teacher Gan managed to force me to finish 12 pages of tiny weensy words of HG in 100+ minutes yes; i need such discipline otherwise i rot. ok. enough about silly crap that happened today. last thursday was super at convent's installation. surprisingly i had fun; especially with jinghuei, diong & yongjun. then friday was tiring. & cool, had fun at the..umm...mid-autumn+hariraya neighborhood celebration. free food, drinks & lanterns! had so much fun playing with the one shaped like a hot-air balloon; you burn wax then the hot air gets trapped in the bag...[see the picture below] get what i mean now?  doesnt matter if you dont. its just feels good being a kid again & trying out new traditional toys like that. yeap, this was my first successful attempt to...make it take off & float away. saturday was madness. happiest part was when my vocal trainer told me i improved. the other things happened were just...casual. but watching batman begins was great too! church was nice; too bad i couldnt stay long because i had a meeting to go to. but the facial after lunch was pretty relaxing. my first time ever getting it professionally. hahaha! come to think of it. i've been napping everyday since saturday. wow. what a privilege...so seldom i get to do that. however, i still sleep late every night...so im still tired during daytime. time to snooze. im ready for HongKong! muahahahahahhhaa i need to catch up on my cantonese. fast. xoxoxo Labels: new shit cut down sweet sugary food
Wednesday, September 22, 2010, 10:17 PM
 i took some shit-yeah!-awesome photos yesterday during dinner with fiona, justin, rachel & luke! didnt know i'd return home at 10pm++ & kena questioned my dad but its alright kekeke~ super duper happy i hung out with those people; especially when i found out McDs' was still open at 10pm & we got ice-cream for spontaneous dessert muahaahhahahhaha!! then when i got home; justin+fiona turned out to be our stalkers for the evening.   . HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL! or MID-AUTUMN! or something... whatever you call it; go play with lanterns! & stuff yourselves with moon cake. oh 冰皮月饼.... xoxo p/s be thankful for your parents. & your friends. & those around you. love&cherish them. Labels: new shit; fun; friends "only old people are long sighted"
Sunday, September 12, 2010, 2:49 PM
about the title : THANKS DAD.hah its been a week! since i updated i mean. firstly; thank you for your awesome birthday wishes + the presents that you gave me... so anyways; BFFs. monday. the date when i was born 17 years ago. geez. thats alot of years. something popped up & in the end i went out only with my best friend. which was super duper awesome! hahaha i lied through my teeth to watch a very violent movie & this was taken went we were about to cross the busy street. love it.  & i love this one too. taken in redbox when i was out with jiayee, jiahui, estelle&vishelle having a blast! we then headed for korean food by the sea but unfortunately vishelle couldnt join us cause she had a party to attend.  i had a stomachache after that meal. i dont know what cause it but i still enjoyed my meal however. thursday i got to play with clay! the whole day! man it was tiring! was starving when i arrived home.went to singapore to see the RYLA gang the next but visited najwa's for her raya open house 1st ...man it was fun! then JAM! at the causeway. which sucks. but i must say: I THANK SINGAPORE FOR BUS LANES! it made my journey speed up. we went to watch the haunted changi...which was pretty freaky. then had diner at waruku! & walked around & talked alot but i stupidly forgot to take photos -.- that was the dumbest thing that happened to me that day. then yesterday i got my eyes checked & apparently im LONG SIGHTED. roflmaowtfbbq right!? i got it from my mama. hmmm...but my specs are pretty... they'll be arriving one week later. gosh i have to suffer for another week! heh whatthefish. goodbye xoxo Labels: birthday(s); new shit; fun; friends recieved 2; deliver the other 2.
Sunday, September 5, 2010, 5:37 PM
 i have decided to blog on the last day of being 16. sheesh; just went to a birthday party yesterday of miss VYL & she just turned 16. life passes so fast. hmm whatever. AT KL PICS: this pretty girl who just came out from the shower is the mastermind behind all the double surprise party planning.  this is my eldest sis & i in the car on the way home from church+lunch. this is kimberley's desk. thats me blogging on the screen. figures huh. was suppose to head back to JB the next day but... ...i couldnt turn down dear kellie's offer to bring me out with the others. we had lunch together at tonyroma's & when shopping after that while jiekath stay in the restaurant to finish her late discovered homework. her friends are noobs -.- i miss them very much; it'd be totally awesome if i could celebrate my birthday with them but too bad. we're too far away + its been celebrated already. oh well. we watched PCK the movie which was lame so i thought it was time&$ wasting. not recommended. & guess what; never in my life i wasted 25mins of my life in a cinema watching a WRONG MOVIE PLAYED. aihh. whatthebeep. so anyways; i hopped on the earliest bus home the next morning & went to school for baking session...which turned out horrible because i failed. but its ok.thurs&fri was shitty. in a way. cause i had not much time to do much work. & then hols = now. then my official day of adding one to my current age. i hope i have fun. 突然被放飞机的感觉令我失望 my birthday wish? i have to many to list. i'll tell you one though; STOP CALLING ME KIMBERLEY. thank you. xoxo Labels: birthday(s); new shit the jokes on me in the end.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010, 12:18 AM
wooof! im currently blogging with my sis' laptop in KL. well, in bukit jalil now to be exact. so anyways; to celine the master mind, thank you for the lovely surprise that made me cry. yeap, i cried...cause imma crybaby. hahaha! as i thought it was only a surprise for kim; turned out to be a surprise for me too! to those sneaky asses who made it happen; thank you very much. i would like to return the favor someday too. tears of joy i say. after reuniting with my siblings i must say i have become...an itchy mouth. as in; i cant stop eating because they have so much food there! theres chocolates, bread, noodles, cakes, dumplings, etcetc junk foods! on the first hour of kim's 19th birthday; we had pizza & cakes & i had a chocolate facial by my sis which ...wasnt a purifying masks to be exact. i ended up with a pimple on my chin the next morning. saturday afternoon was madness; we head to the supermarket to get ingredients for the upcoming picnic in the park which turned out to be fantastically fun! we ate sandwiches & chips & took tonnes of photos! we also did dares & climbed up the tower to see the sunset. man i miss it already. fun didnt stop there; we caught the movie STEP UP 3 at 9.15pm & you have to go catch it! its so nice to watch! just go watch it & you'll understand what i mean. superb! sleep super late that night & woke up late for church. mom nagged. as usual. but its ok. she cares....negatively...for our good. hmm i finally met alvin which i didnt remember from church camp but hey! its good seeing him & christine & samuel (again) & meeting jolene, keven, keith, yi thing, etc.that afternoon i planned to nap for one hour only but hitting the snooze button on my alarm led to another snooze button & to another snooze button; i slept for 3 or 4 hours...cant remember exactly. i finally got up at 6pm++ & picked up kel & got stationary for mom. had a bowl of noodles mom cooked at midnight...bad? i totally know. wanted to get this cute skirt this afternoon :  but the zipper was a big problem. i mean, not just for one but for all, even if its a different size; the issue still occurs. the factory's QC should really do their jobs! refusing to leave the mall empty handed i spend $$ on ...items i wont reveal to you...you dont need to know hahaha!then kim & i went to pick up jo ann & we head for the karaoke green box...place...which i've never heard of before ever...but its actually very similar to red box....just better. you get to refill your drinks & snacks as many times as you want & the people there are much nicer & friendlier... good service i must mention. i wish i can do it again. time flies when you're having fun so it all went by so soon. theres always next time i guess. ughh...heading back to JB tomorrow. i mean today, later. this afternoon. i hate going home alone. literally there would be a bus full of people travelling with me but you get what i mean. pfff. time for bed. i hate mosquito bites. just got kissed in the forehead a while ago. pests. xoxo Labels: birthday(s); new shit; fun; friends good patch up.
Monday, August 23, 2010, 10:08 PM
things i just did :go to facebook & clicked on "ignore" countless times & watched many SMTOWN LIVE'10 fancam videos on youtube. still searching for clearer + less shaky ones. heehee! sounds boring?? i'll tell you whats not boring; MY FIRST DATE WITH ESTELLE. hahaha!   we went to MR. BAOZ for dinner & it was slightly sad. they sold out their 'bao's & we had no choice but to eat other not-so-yummy food like burgers & rice. we should have went to somewhere else but before we could, it was too late. we already finished the food. wanna know where good food is at? KIMCHI&BBQ. seriously. call me a regular; i enjoy the food there. & i met 2 cute little korean boy who refused to eat with their parents because they are...kids. good posers i must say.  was tired when i reached home. but i couldnt rest just yet. i gave my word to mom about baby sitting her friend's daughter. i must have done a pretty good job because she whined, cried & refused to get into the car when it was time to go home.   meihong & grace. this one was taken yesterday night when i attended a concert by wai yin ching & students music concert. their performances were really amazing. i finally got to see my vocal trainer/teacher sing & she did fantastic. as always i guess. by the end of the event, i was hungry but more thirsty. my ulcers were crying out to me. & an embarrassing thing happened to me. i was calling to grace to ask her to take a photo of me & meihong. "ah grace!" i called out. & a lady walking pass responded to me. we exchanged facial expressions & i wanted to explain i wasnt referring to her, but somehow all i could make out was "im sorry...act...". then i saw her name tag & stupidly read her name out loud. so she gave me a look as if she expects me to say something to her. "your blouse...is very nice...its pink" yea yea; i gave myself a smack on the forehead spiritually. meihong&grace were grinning away. her name is doris & she gave me a pleasant/grateful smile & walked away. i feel guilty. in a way. like, i cheated her smile. heh...life aint that bad. i know worse scenarios...xoxo Labels: new shit; fun; friends we welcome weekends
Thursday, August 19, 2010, 9:40 PM
sweet dreams dont happen to me often; in fact, they occur insanely rarely! like once out of 2 years of nightmare facing. you have no idea what i see in my mind......but yesterday i had one of the best ever. i dreamed i hugged+chatted with minho from SHINee, my favorite kpop boy group & i got to say hi to onew the leader. didnt really out much thought on the other 3 members...cause...i had to wake up already. I OVERSLEPT. it was 10 minutes to 9am & i jumped out of bed after hearing "ryn, do you have class today?" from mom through the intercom. sheesh. i hate being late for things. & forgetting to set the alarm the previous night. but i had an awesome dream so kids, theres a price for everything. my example : a sweet dream for punctuality to class. anyways mom dropped me at school 20minutes later when i was ready. ahhh i wish to dream beautiful dreams more often. HOW DO YOU LIKE MY NEW BLOGSKIN? love it? hate it? too pink? very girly huh?i like it....no? dont'chu too? hahahah till then...xoxo Labels: new shit mr. boogie; if i want to...i can have you.
Monday, August 16, 2010, 9:53 PM
first of all; before i wanna tell you the difference between 2 pieces of clothing that we wear when its cold.  now now, here we have a beige coat on the LEFT & is blue jacket on the RIGHT. that's all for todays lesson.  "...allowing ages 12 & below only" how was your holiday last wednesday? mine...kinda...went down the drain cause whatever was planned is being postponed but no worries, it wasn't that bad anyways. saw tall cute chinese basketball players during dinner & i also fell sick that day. bad cold....& despite that, i went out with kim, jo ann & see wei to stroll around danga bay. we got a warning for sitting on the swings by the guard there cause we're too old for 'em. hahahah but everything turned out fine after all. my weekend was great.  scribbles by elizabeth! friday was a blast; we went to celebrate CCY'S 17th birthday.the food was slightly pricey but the amount was a lot but not that tasty so...you be the judge. we played pool before dining & presented gifts to her!   post eating. & a chicken for CCY!  i had a blast. it wasn't bad at all. im super duper happy i got my 'kegiatan' & still waiting for my expedition badge. & yesterday at church, i saw the cutest sleeping baby position! right? you just can't disagree with me on this one! kim is home! but i never mentioned she left so it doesnt matter; this is dad smiling widely after talking about how great she is as THE TOP STUDENT in her college!  haih. i'll find some other way to make him proud too. heehee! i took a nap this afternoon after arriving home from school & dozed off on the couch. i only woke up when dad & the others came home from work which was 2 hours later. im very energized now. see you! xoxo CLICK ME I'M YOUR TEENAGE DREAM. Labels: fun; friends; new shit, MV |
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