yes i am...

what do you take me for?

2012-02-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

here i go again.
waiting.
hoping.
wishing.
making up excuses for you

i thought i'd be strong enough to say "stop, this is enough"
but no, now i know how difficult it is to hold on once you're attached.

i dont know for sure whether you're doing it on purpose or i just happened to be so unlucky to be missing you all the time. but then again, who am i to you if time is not made for me?

everywhere i turn there are loved ones who care. they genuinely do.
but among those loved ones, some are special...in a case where they involved in lies in my life.
i have been fooled repeatedly & thus, i try best to be cautious but when you put so much love & faith in someone, you let your guard down. & thats a stupid thing to do.

angry or sad,
disappointed or mad.
whats done is done. you cant change the past; but be extra vigilant in the future.

so, moral of the vague story is, there is always somebody that will you let you down.
close or not close,
family or non-family member,
friend or foe,
sooner or later you will find that many may disappoint, & only a handful can be trusted.

ON ANOTHER NOTE: i got a free chocotop sundae cone from McD's today cause the dude behind the counter made a mistake with the order. hahaha! thats one surprise im glad about for today.
xoxo

never satisfied

2012-01-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

eeeeeeeeee back to work in 10 hours!
gotta wake up early & put on make up.
eeeeeeeeee still on holiday mood. HOW?!
ohh well. i miss my work place anyways.
break legs. xoxo

cheater cheater compulsive eater.

2012-01-24T11:40:00.001+08:00

im back lazing in my own room in JB, drinking drinks & talking talks.
i miss this.
although it sounds horribly boring, but home is home, nothing can replace it.
wahaha! today's activity: scroll a lot on tumblr, chitchat & upload photos on facebook, watch a few videos on youtube then some house keeping, lunch then off to JPO! not forgetting dinner tonight with my dad's side of the family!

so life has been hectic for the past 2 months, & im happy for it. very thankful as well
getting a job at topshop is superb, i miss some coworkers now.
just came home from danang, vietnam yesterday afternoon. then it was off to see my granndparents in melaka & muar. slept at 3am & woke up before 10am due to the loud volume of one's speech. tsk...well, at least i woke up today. so its all good.

thank you for checking up on me. also, sorry for not updating this place for a crucially long time.

meanwhile, dont get mad. heres a video for you!

shes amazing! + i love this song. haha
HAPPY CNY. xoxo

2011-12-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

found love in a hopeless place?
GOOD!! congrats.
i like the effects of the video. well done

but kinda ironic they ended the MV with a breakup.
its just a story anyways so its fine.

HELLO PEOPLE!!
updates:
im currently working at topshop midvalley
& loss 3 kg for standing & walking around the shop for 4 hours straight. 8 hours per day. sometimes 10. woohooo!!! must keep up the good work!
if you wanna drop by to see me please inform me beforehand otherwise you might miss me. i could be having my off day or breaktime. never know.

well said

2011-11-16T22:48:00.002+08:00

sneak socks

2011-11-10T11:06:00.000+08:00

i am free. officially until the 22nd however.
cause thats when the results come out!
thus, im currently rotting my ass at home.
im not even sure whether i got accepted for the part time jobs i applied for, they havent called back to confirm my position :/

meanwhile, LOL SPM is coming soon. goodluck.
i dont wanna retake my exam! gahh!! MUST. GET. GOOD. RESULTS!!
other than that, college MUST accept me!!
currently in a mess now. haaaa

anyways!
my sis showed me something the other day & it immediately made me hyper!
dont wanna show it here, instead, i wanna collect youtube view counts so click here to watch!
teeheee
bye!

LIKE A BRA.

2011-10-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

today imma talk about being thankful.

im grateful for :
1) notes & letters my friends sent/gave to me. they spent time making & writing; expressing themselves & making effort to show love. thank you.

2) company. i may not be the best due to my current stressed out self; but thank you for putting up with me & being there when i was alone. thank you for hanging out with me & talking to me. chatting with me when i was bored & stressed out. thank you for lifting me up when i was down. thank you for tolerating my temper & nasty attitude.

3) gifts & free food. thanks for making me happy, even just a little. im thankful! ESPECIALLY FREE BADGES & SCARVES! woohoooo!! you know who you are; but you're not gonna read this. TOO BAD

4) thank you for hearing me out. for being there when i was mad. to have somebody listen to me rant is...awfully nice.

5) picking up the phone call. it was great hearing your voice; extra awesome especially when nobody is around :/

6) cleaning the place. at a very odd time. just to be clear; thank you for cleaning. not so grateful about the time part. quite disturbing...

7) saying hi. HI READER! :D hello! thanks for dropping by. please continue doing so. you're fabulous & dont stop it!

ok. on a different topic.
my exams are in SIX days!
shiiiiieeeeaaattt! im not as ready as i thought i would be; i keep failing the practice tests & its driving me mad cause they're just so tricky & energize consuming!!
pray for me please & thank you!!

xoxo

2011-10-15T12:57:00.000+08:00

this shall be interesting to read.

im not myself today.
i woke up a different person.
i woke up feeling like a loser & undetermined to do anything.
i refuse to do anything productive.
i've spent my morning sleeping til 10 then doing useless things

such as...
talking back as a spoiled kid would.
truly grateful of being thought of but yet; unthankful for being disobeyed.
u did not listen when i made myself clear.

i warn people of things that i wouldnt want to happen to me or to them.
somehow nobody listens. which is totally fine by them; but not by me.
how do i feel?
theres no reason to feel down but somehow i just do.
i shouldnt give a shit but
i feel upset.
i feel sad.
i feel mad.
while i should be glad.
ironic how they rhyme.

im sorry for the way i spoke.
however, not so apologetic after all the things u back.
u werent there for me. instead, u pushed me closer to a grave.
im not joyful of that; rather, i regret listening to u cause i now know u helped, in a bad way.
im now sinking. sinking down a large well of selfish misery.
what doesnt kill u makes u stronger.
thus dont piss me off cause i wont die anytime soon. u'd just be training me how to handle crap like yours.

as i said at the top; im not myself.
im not positive for now.
i shall regain my right attitude later; thats for sure.
but hey, u gotta fall in order to pick yourself up.

signing out without kisses, hugs or smile.
bye.

berstressing

2011-10-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

as it is getting closer & closer to my exam; i progressively feel more & more nervous.
yet, increasingly angsty. towards homework & revision.
annoyed. often. really fast.

its all because of stress.
WHAIIIIIIIIIIII

im done. too much info here.
LOL ok bye ):

brainwashing bitch

2011-10-06T21:42:00.001+08:00

I AM HERE TO BLOGGGGGGGGG!!!
hello
JUST FYI; big shout to dear esther yew who told me to update my blog the past week but i just got so lazy. LOL
THIS IS FOR U, ESTHER MUAHAHHAHAHHAHA

alotta crap has been going recently.
like; my turning of 18 years old.
my sis going to london for her 2nd + 3rd year of law.
fucked up shit in school. seriously fucked up.
FYI when i curse; i mean it. 100% defined. haaa

pfft. maafkan.

alot of parties attended due to the past term break
hari raya; birthday celebrations; gatherings etc

29days left til my exam! im so nervoussssssss
i cant sleep sometimes; im going insomniac!
then i end up worrying til i enter my dreams unknowingly
then waking up later than i should in the mornings.

i miss the times i had last year.
everything went so smooth & peaceful.
but this year, oh gosh, full splats of true colors like paintball fights.

HI KIM; i miss u :)
if u're reading this. OIH DONT OVERSPEND
hahahhahahahhahah love u all.

thank you for reading. & checking up on me.
yes my previous suggestion (not rule) to leave in your names was made so i could know who visits, i'd say thank you to you but hey...not all are cooperating thus, thanks to ONLY those who mentioned themselves!
JEREMY SHANE MELANIE PUILING KOKHOE MAURICE JAKE ESTHER VISHELLE CHRISTINE DLL hahahahhah i cant list all but i have listed the recent ones!!

STUCK WITH MATHS!! ahhhhhhhhhh save meeeee!!!
LOL dont bother trying. you'd fail!! JK. we'll see about that
xoxo

malicious much ?

2011-09-05T01:55:00.000+08:00

hahaahha feels like i do this as a monthly thing now.
well, at least i do this as a monthly thing now.

hello readers! im suppose to be sleeping but im not; cause im here. writing!

kk. first things first : my holiday was excellent FYI
- loved that my bestest friends came over to watch movies & we had pizzas!!
- got my nails done. pretty lovable
except for the part where one nail cracked & the quarter top had to be removed.
- happy to see my primary school mates again. sang K & off pitched in front of everybody...haaa....good times...
- horrible bosses really had horrible bosses. real douchebags
tho it was quite enjoyable.
- raya was gr8. went to visit a former teacher. hope to do so again next year
- last-minute decision to visit my siblings in KL on friday & i arrived home 2 hours ago
jumping, swimming, shopping, playing. OOH! met scouts from Kim's group.
fun to hang out with them. i had a great time overall.

kinda bummed out i gotta remove my pretty pretty nail polish & wake up early for school tomorrow
but that doesnt mean the fun stops here. til then.
see ya! xoxo

sticking red Ps

2011-08-14T23:11:00.002+08:00

PHEWWWW!
had a great day today.

shout out to August babies: hello & happy birthday!

i feel incredibly happy today.
like i found peace.
however im very aware that it wont last for long so im embracing the moment being transferring positive energy to you! HI HI HI HI HI SMILE SMILE SMILE
you are beautiful & dont let anything think otherwise.
unless you're bitter person who complains & bitches about others all the time...then...not so beautiful...
eat right. sleep enough. drink plenty of fluids & exercise!
think positive & stay that way!
all the problems in the world can be solved. you just gotta try harder & kick ass.
YES YOU ARE VERY BAD ASS THUS, YOU CAN DO IT.
YOU SHALL SUCCEED IN LIFE.
in nothing evil or bad though...cause they'd fail haaa...
加油!

to unknown strangers who visit my blog & say dumb unpleasant things.
im telling you off nicely. PLEASE STOP IT...cause...your silly little remarks might backfire & hey. you'd lose face.
although you can go anonymous all the time & i have no idea who u are, being a coward & everything...GOD IS WATCHING YOU...
o.o
hahahahhaa so stop it.
saying hi would do. then leave if you have nothing nice to say,.
thats all. thank you.

OK! back to my day...
I MET RUSSELL LEE!
the guy who write ghost stories in singapore.
HES SUPER FRIENDLY!
he even taught me how he handshakes people. LOL
maybe i'll make a video to show it to you one day :)

till then. xoxo
HAVE FUN AT SCHOOL TOMORROW!
if you have classes, that is...

dropping doritos

2011-08-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

hi guys.
i've been meaning to ask y'all these questions :

WHO ARE U & WHY DO U VISIT MY BLOG?
seriously. u dont leave your name. make a change. LEAVE YOUR NAME TODAY !
p/s dont forget to tell why u're here. thanks!

& also; i wanna make a video. but of what idk either :/
any ideas? please...

oohh & if u suggest nothing, dont expect any results. SO RECOMMEND SOMETHING & LEAVE YOUR NAME.
suggest as many as you want.

ahahahahahhahahaahha
procrastination nation
SAVE ME!

ok xoxoxo

sponge my room? NO.

2011-08-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

words of a discouraged daughter.

IM GONNA WASTE ALL YOUR MONEY BECAUSE WHATEVER I DO IS NOT GONNA SATISFY YOU NOR MAKE YOU PROUD THEREFORE WHATEVER I DO IS ALSO KNOWN AS A WASTE OF TIME.

IM WASTING MY YOUTH BECAUSE YOU DONT SEE HOW I SPEND MY TIME IS BENEFICIAL IN ANY WAY. YOU NOD YOUR HEAD & LET ME BE BECAUSE WE ARE AT THE POINT WHERE WE DONT KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE ANYMORE.

I DONT LISTEN BECAUSE YOU DONT TALK. YOU DONT TALK BECAUSE I DONT LISTEN.

NEW FOUND DISCOVERIES I SHARE, YOU DO NOT CARE NOR GIVE A CRAP. YOU WONT AT LEAST PARTICIPATE. YOU SEE THINGS THAT ARE FAR AHEAD SO OFTEN, YOU FORGOT ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU.

GO FORTH & IGNORE. IM ALSO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY WHERE I SIT FOR MY SAT EXAM & FAIL because thats what i do all the time apparently & EVENTUALLY MOVE OUT OF THIS PLACE. HELL YEAH I'LL MISS HOME BUT SHIT NO I DONT WANNA BE SAD ANYMORE.

guess shes done here.
more will come in the future. haaa

forgot to title this

2011-07-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

hello you!
if u still happen to com by now & then to check out whether i have any new posts or not which is highly unlikely because i dont blog on a schedule; i just write whatever i want whenever i want so...HELLO & THANK YOU!
emm

IM BACK FROM TAIWAN!
betcha didnt know that eh! heee
or you did. because u're family. or a close friend. again. HI!
here are some pictures for u! & also...

check this cover out. its by my friend kenneth & im pretty impressed with the song. its well sung!
enjoy & cheers. xoxo

koala at the movies

2011-07-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

oh well hello; i've been kinda busy lately thus no new entries but HERES ONE!
yayyy!!!
its july already. a new month. time flies fast :\
looking back & thinking of the fun times i had; i miss them plenty but im also looking forward to the future too. u should too.
imma continue to be MIA for a while...probably 2 weeks or so but hey, u should be used to it already since i dont blog as often i used to hahaha

tc & be careful of racist cops when wearing yellow.

fun frisbee

2011-06-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

i had fun yesterday.
i had fun today.
i had fun this weekend.

but no. u are not happy about it.
but no. seeing is not believing,
no, u think i dont study enough.

i do i do
i do study hard.
in school.
i do i do
i do play hard too.
right in front of u.

everytime i inform u im heading out, u sulk.
u give me the face & a nod of "approval"
to avoid seeing that expression i choose not to tell u because thats the only way
heck no u'd just get angrier & gimme another type of face.
either way im damned to see that face?
that unhappy expression of yours as if nothing i do is ever good enough for u

oh yea...readers. take this as a lesson that parents are NEVER gonna stop doing that.
they just expect expect expect then later on they set'em so high its tiring to keep up so u let yourself go for a while. relax a bit.
NO U CANT. disappointment.
great...

either way. whatever i friggin do is never good enough for u.
yes thats how i feel right now.
im not ready for certain things; gimme time to prepare please?
problems pop up when the last one was settled.
its especially crappy when they gang up on u like camisado.
haaaa...
good night!

real? or just faking real?

2011-06-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

just wanted to give you food for thought.

when we get disappointed, we tell ourselves to not expect so high of something or somebody next time.

but whenever i do that, i cry & feel all bad because things didnt end my way,
i cant bear to expect something low.

not to be a total perfectionist which i am by nature & yes, i've been going against mother nature for some time now...why go for something low when you can receive something at a higher quality.

i guess. we console ourselves to say we'll seek something low next time so we dont get disappointed anymore.
then when we're ok, we'll be like : AIM FOR THE SKY!
mhmm. so whether you achieve it, in the end, its not really all in your hands. most of it yes, taking situations into your hands...but no, not 100%

lifes full with ups & downs.
few people stay; most leave.
its worse when they go without even saying good bye.
xoxo

partyin partyin partyin yeah!

2011-06-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

ahhh im so sick of cake.
& ice-cream
& well, mainly food.
ahahhahahah been stuffing myself for the past 2 weeks of the term break

thats about it. eating & running around town to town because
i cant stay still. i'd turn rotten & decompose in my imagination.
went to many many boring places with fun friends thus the trips became super!
its the company that counts

got a tan
got many cuts & bruises.
worth it i'd say.
they might turn into scars...which is horrible but then.
looking at it as a reminder; that aint so bad remembering how much fun u had & how fabulous your peers are.

not very keen to wake up early tomorrow morning but im looking forward to seeing my friends in school again. whoopwhoop!
100 points for manic classmates!
xoxo

purple straw mustache.

2011-06-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

mmm.
eehmm.
blehh.
sore throat alert.

its so itchy! i wanna scratch it but the only way to do so is by coughing really hard!
but that didnt stop me from eating all those snacks. heeee
its the holidays & i was so bored today i couldnt stand it, i went to coffee bean & THANK GOD i had awesome friends to accompany me. too bad you left a few minutes before i arrive, kanpuiling.
but its fine. we'll catch up real soon!

went to the warehouse sale today. loads of cheap stuff!
my new red shoes gave me a hard time walking around & i became quite moody.
mm...i had fun anyways, i left happy but had no energy to show it.
hahaha i was lucky too! got a prize from the lucky draw!

xoxo

i read minds

2011-05-23T19:29:00.003+08:00

i am eating dinner as i am writing this.
my hands are shaking.
im so hungry+tired im shaking.
i find it unbelievable. but its a fact.

haha thats was life update #1
upcoming next; update #2.
i am addicted to this song!

just for the record. i am 100% heterosexual BUT BUT BUT i must say
must...need...want...whatever...
about the corset Dev wore made her boobs so damn sexy woh!
in other words... ... ... ...would be too crude & unlady-like to mention. *wink
dont tell me, as a boy (if you are one), YOU DID NOT LOOK AT HER LUSCIOUS LADY LUMPS. even as i, a straight girl (once again); DID. haaa cant run now, can you...muahahahhahaha

moreover, i bet you havent even watched the video! haaa...
& now i totally know you're soooooo gonna be on the alert for her boobs now.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA i've got you now.
DONT.
BOTHER.
ESCAPING.

chillax. i wont tell. though im aware you might.
cehh...cheater. nevermind.

#4. THE GARBAGE COLLECTORS ARE MIA.
its been more than 10 days...big black bags are piling at the sides of large garbage bins by the road sides. maggot maggot maggots. just you wait.
they are manifesting while you're not watching.

#5
im having chicken rice for dinner. currently.
so Asian yea yea i know.
ok & lastly #6; today i learned not to highlight my mistakes.
got that right. xoxo

more sores by whores

2011-05-19T22:05:00.004+08:00

staying neutral is difficult.
it takes a lot of practice to stay balanced.
a little too much of something & you're done. its over.

you fall.

i guess in my case...
right now...is...
the balance of myself.

im mentally strong i admit.
you may think otherwise; thats your opinion. im not gonna sue you haha
but i see myself as being emotionally weak currently.
im effected way easily compared to last time.

i was much bubblier & carefree.
i used to smile a lot.
however. nowadays.
shits are just everywhere.

note : im writing all these to think clearly & at the same time, allowing you to see it too.

yea yea. you'll probably go running to your friend sitting next to you gossiping what a mess im currently being. because you're a big meanie who cant keep your mouth shut. this post doesnt even regard anything about you but hell, why not screw up this girl's life even more.

if you do. seriously. may you burden yourself with the guilt to the extend you cant sleep EVER or just bring it down the grave. its fine. i dont know who you are anyways. totally harmless to talk cock behind my ass right? yea. ok.

but if you dont. thank you. your discretion is appreciated. now inform me you've read what you read here instead of just stalking me.
moving on...

with life. i mean. haaa you thought i was gonna write more?

you wish.

ok fine granted.

life life life. i guess im struggling to recover from the past.
& move on.
& the crappy part is whenever i think im ok, im fine, im dong great!
i doubt myself again. its so frustrating & im pretty sure you know what i mean.
& if you dont...YOU'RE NOT FROM THIS PLANET NOW...ARE YOU!?

friends are family & family are friends.
when family cant be there for you; your friends appear.
when your friends disappoint you; you can always turn to your family.
except. my family is always busy. heh. i'll disturb em anyways. or not.

its not that bad come to think of it. my situation could be far worse.
im thankful its not. it comes across to me as brand new thats why im being such a pain in the brain. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
i wouldnt say that fits to every situation or issue.
for example: you survive a car accident but you turn into a vegetable...how are you stronger?
maybe if you somehow you mysteriously own psychic powers & able to move objects with your mind..then yea. ok. you're definitely super stronger. i'll rest my case.

i need to be inspired.
i took a break from writing for a couple of minutes & now my fingers are back in action.
so. yea. i need to be inspired. i just figured the answer to my problems.
told you my mental state is perfectly functioning.
though im feeling sad because im lost. thats all.
wish me luck on my...conquest?
HAHAHAHHAHA NO.
say whutt??
good luck on your life too. may you...
achieve to find solutions to your problems too.
xoxo

essay unity

2011-05-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

"When parents are preoccupied or away, children will seek attention else where, usually in undesirable surroundings with people who will recognize & accept them."
true story.

everybody has parents. present or not.
they are there. they were there.
they exist. they existed.
be thankful for what you have; it might just slip away from your possession & vanish into thin air or happen to be lying in a coffin when you were blinking.

mend it before it bends.

dont blame somebody else for your own mistakes.
dont curse & hate somebody else because their life is better than yours.
especially that somebody did you no harm or caused you no pain.
you should be ashamed.
you should feel sorry.
you should apologize.
dont you have any humility?

they say forgive & forget.
it is, in my opinion : difficult to forgive; but harder to forget.

try.
try harder.
try your best.
put effort into it.
nobody will ever notice it if you dont do so.

dont you realize my words of encouragement?
dont you realize you're granted a second chance?
dont you know what you're seeing?
think. you'll get it only if you think.
thats what your brain is for.
GO FIGURE.

grow up or grow old?

2011-05-09T19:56:00.008+08:00

new shoes hurt.
pfff...i'll get used to em.

but one thing i'll never get used to : seeing a tiny wiggly white & short ...worm on my 2nd piece of sandwich. makes me wonder...did i eat one on my first?

slightly...traumatized. well...no. not really.
I HAVE GUTS!
fact : worms are protein.
in the form of being alive & moving....doesnt really help though.

not my version of wonderland...
its so adult-ized? i prefer the one where you get to drink tea with the 2 MHs & all creatures talk.

this chicks pretty badass. heee

thats all for tonight folks!

#royalwedding me 200000x per minute

2011-04-29T23:36:00.008+08:00

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why why why am i laughing so much?
not necessarily out loud but why so much?

i am; in fact doing so as, i just found out flattering information that one has been treating me coldly shes thinks me highly capable of snatching away her precious boyfriend, which i actually am, by the way. however, the unfortunate part lies within her head as I, Karyn Ong, do not & never will participate in sucha lowly sickening selfish & disgusting event. mark my words & smack me on the arm if you ever catch me doing such a filthy thing. please & thanks.

i also feel a tad disappointed to acknowledge her tiny mind is filled with these childish thoughts. she did drag me to a certain level beneath herself. or maybe...similar to hers.
WHUT AEH TERRIBLE TRAGEDY! < read that in a British accent hahaha
cant a confident out-going young lady be friends with a already-in-a-relationship boy? do you see any valid reason to object so?
ohh dear dear, you jealous poor unfortunate soul filled with delusional thinking.
i'll pray for her to grow in wisdom & proper brains to notice things logically.

learn to set apart sense & stupidity. xoxo

play telephone

2011-04-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

guess what. im feeling better today.
im eating well. my mood is good. just need more sleep to cure my dark eye circles...
& just as i thought i could mention how amazing i feel...something dumb popped up.

good news is my driving went well today. YAY ME!
bad news is i still managed killed the car.

MY SISTER JUST MADE ME REALIZED SOMETHING.
the queen is gonna denounce her throne :(
i somehow feel like i will miss her
I HAVE NO FRIGGIN IDEA WHY =.=
check it out here

ok. signing off now.
BTW big shout out to you for reading & commenting here.
i really appreciate your thoughtfulness? heee XOXO

DONT MAKE ME EMPHASIZE ON THIS PLEASE

2011-04-24T21:00:00.003+08:00

#nowplaying : E.T. - katy perry.

i love her. so much. big fan. but i dont buy her CDs.
what a confession. haa
i'd love to meet her one day. take a photo with her or something
be featured in one of her music videos! that'd be totally rad.
oh well. another item of my fantasies listed out.

anyways, that wasnt the agenda of this post tonight.
my friend's facebook account got hacked. & i knew because she opened up a brand new one & re-added me as a friend. of course i accepted & asked her what happened. that was when i knew & realized; if that didnt happen, i wouldnt be talking to her now.
so i guess things just happen for a reason. whether pleasant or awful, theres a reason behind it.

which makes me think about something else. if i didnt approach her to ask her what had happened to her other account; would she talk to me right after i accepted her friend request?
in other words, would anybody talk to me if i didnt talk to em first?

i guess not. because, from what i've been going through...the super close people that i grew up with dont...bother...to ask how i am.
oh well. maybe im PMS-ing or some hormone is messing with me but seriously, they're too busy to ask how i am. i guess this is what i get when im alone in a house for too long.
how pathetic. perhaps this is the phase of life where you get a boyfriend.
ugh. i dont know. im just typing to entertain you
& by you, i mean nobody, because nobody visits here.
pfff...alright. thanks. bye.

get out by the end of this year.

2011-04-23T20:57:00.005+08:00

i just i blog whenever i feel sad, upset or mad...or just lonely.
you dont often see happy posts now, do you?
i preferably talk to my friends about whats bothering me but i just im not emotionally ready to spill yet.

so. imagine the scenario of me sitting at the driver's seat.
handling a manual vehicle. screwing up the clutch constantly...either i dont step hard enough on it or i let it go too quickly. then of course; the engine dies out.
FYI this crappy luck happened to me at least 5 times today & i was criticized to be doing worse than the last time. yes, its only my 2nd time & i couldnt manage to just laugh it off anymore with my blue spirit & with an old grumpy exhausted instructor who lost patience in me as he started his day early in the morning. i teared up.

yes. oh yes. i did.
i focused all my attention to his ramblings about how horrible my state was
& how the bottom part of my vision started to blur as fluid accumulated on my lower eyelids.
i cried. quietly. of course. he didnt stop adding salt to the wound until he really noticed me. ahh...those hurtful words. couple of mean nicknames here & there...handful of criticism.
i cant blame him for doing his job.
i cant blame other people for staring at the tears that rolled down my cheeks.
i dont blame anybody else. but myself.
"i need more practice" i thought to myself. then it occurred to me everybody in the family drives an auto car so...hell. finding the right vehicle is kinda difficult now. oh great.

i refuse to wipe my face
moreover, i refuse to look at him.
i guess i cried because...i was angry at myself. this was an actual situation where i felt humiliated like never before, & the last time i could remember feeling this embarrassed was before i turned 12; when i was still in primary school.
well of course, i certainly did cry a few other times after graduating from primary school. but im not gonna mention them.

its always nice to come back home & talk to a loving family member about your bad day & then they'd cheer you up & tease you lightly a bit, making you feel better.
but instead of all that lovely. i have you : the internet.
my family is...busy & im lonely. i really am.
now that i've admit it, alone in this huge house with colorful walls fail to cheer me up, turning to the phone sucks cause phone bills arent easy to keep it low so...HELLO INTERNET.

i guess this is what happens to me when i dont see proper friends or when the only family member in the same building doesnt communicate enough. a part of me wants to do something silly. something stupid. something irrational & childish. because, its labelled F-U-N.
the other part of me just wants to weep more & more until i fall asleep & enter a world of my sub-conscience. i'd perhaps feel better when i wake up. however, reality is reality. whether you like it or not; shits will be there if you dont clean it up, problems will stay if you dont solve em.

to save time; of course. i turn to the 3rd option : dont cry & dont run. literally.
im actually running to you now. but hey! well done for reading all these words. tiny & many they are; give yourself a pat on the back for reading so much. & thank you. for staying with me.
xoxo

TGIF

2011-04-22T22:32:00.003+08:00

frowning because you just remembered you were behind on grades & you feel like life is getting ahead of you.
but i say to you; SMILE.
& rethink what goals you have before you.
& remember you have friends & family who love you dearly
& recall what mistakes you made in the past
& how you promised not to redo em again. ever.
& go back to outside-school activities. ITS A BIG FAT MUST.

"oh no. why so fast? why so soon?"
you let it pass by just like that. thats why.
you have the ability to control yourself
you got the right to your own actions.
NOW TAKE CONTROL!

a due-date is there for you to set a time limit to achieve something.
its a pretty useful thing actually. you just gotta learn how to use it right.

clear clear clearing my mind with hobbies.
scream healthy with me. xoxo

ones 18 & the other, 50.

2011-04-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

guess what!
IM HAPPY TODAY.
huuurraaaayyyy

today was a beautiful day. seriously.
got up & got dressed.
head out for breakfast with kellie eonnie & joyce!

saw ex-school mates & then enjoyed my meal.

went to scouts. did some critical judging.
fun silly photo snapping & then fast food lunch at McD's.
BEST OF FRIENDS UNITED! too bad one was absent. sad case.
unplanned shopping done. & i did a small tiny part to help japan

cab ride to birthday dinner party with an unexpected almost-car accident on the way
arrived safely & had soup.
took more pictures & saw recorded live performances.
paid & left feeling satisfied.

today was a good day.
hoping tomorrow would be good too.
maybe better? we'll see.
goodnight world. wishing you a fabulous day tomorrow spending time productively & preferably with your loved one(s).
xoxo

im sibling-less in JB

2011-04-13T00:20:00.003+08:00

missed my afar family members.
so i ringed my 3rd sis.
& guess what.

IM A LONELY PERSON.

alone in a huge house with 3 dogs i dont bother to look at
unless its feeding time or i just happened to see em through the kitchen window.

i have things. materialistic things.
that avail me to communicate with people in the outside world. *ouch*
the computer. cell phone. house phone? i guess thats it.
haaa

story of my life. at home.
im outgoing. hell yeah. who says no?
i just dont have a certain massively brilliant amount of freedom yet
so til then; phone calls & net chats for the time being.
xoxo

visions & missions

2011-04-08T18:27:00.002+08:00

today, i saw a dead body. COD : gun shot to the chest. i guess.
im not bothered. it was a robbery apparently...dont know why the fella had to die though.
& then...i wasnt there so i dont know. RIP stranger.
ok. bye!

tip tap top hop flop

2011-04-05T22:02:00.002+08:00

living in your delusional paranoia.
they say all of you in the world are same, but my heart truly doubts it.

you're not the one who you say you are.
you dont practice what you preach
but you dont give a shit either.

you say i dont listen but you never did.
i dont have to shout; likewise for you.
open up your ears:
i hate you & your fucked up lies.
your theories are not all accurate yet you still spread em like experimented facts.

calling me 12 & naive when you're the ones whose a joke.
dont kid, its against my nature to listen to your advice.
up or down, all you do is provoke
especially right after i turned down my cries.

HAVENT YOU EMBARASSED ME ENOUGH?!

the blond in blue

2011-04-02T23:09:00.006+08:00

Alice. oh Alice. sometimes i wish to join you down the rabbit hole
expanding & shrinking without permanent stretch marks;
meet talking creatures & wonder around the forest
converse with them speaking plants & tell them what human are.

no, we are not weeds.
but of course, how could i possibly forget to...

drop by to visit White Rabbit if hes not too busy.
nope, we're not monsters either.
we certainly do not get to grow big then small again;
tall then short again back in our world.

smoke some pipe with Caterpillar & ask for his real name.
expecting to answer his question"WHO-ARE-YOU?"
i already prepared answers in my head.
you'd be surprise how bold i can be.

then of course, the riddles & tricks.
if you were me, we'd wave goodbye when he vanishes.
but no worries, he'll be back.
just not in the form as he was.

have tea with the Mad Hatter & March Hare.
celebrating our unbirthdays & laughing our worries away.
maybe meet Time & convince him to slow down.
or even go back. just a little.

perhaps snap a photo with the Cheshire cat
& learn potion spells from the White Queen.
Stand by your side when you snap back at the Red
& escape together when it all was gonna fall apart.

actually. i can.
but only in my head.
imagination is a very strong power.
but controlling it takes skill & mental strength.
do it wrong & you're stuck in wonderland forever.

goodnight world.
ALICE! hope to meet you one day...in my dreams...
O.O
hahaha xoxo

cant nobody can save me.

2011-03-27T23:39:00.004+08:00

THEY ARE NEVER LEAVING ME.
who?
what?!

HELL YEAH. my dark eye circles. they love me to death.
shit. its like being stalked & you've caught your stalker stalking but ITS TOO LATE TO REMOVE IT. hahahahah
whatthecrap is going on in my head...

THING #2 the brown brown thingies on my teeth. dentist said its there cause i didnt brush my teeth properly when i was young. definitely stuck forever...

#3. NIGHTMARES. fun fact of karyn for the day.
I
ALWAYS
HAVE
DREAMS
WHEN
I SLEEP.
& mind you, dreams that are not sweet.
maybe occasionally...one. or two. OUT OF A WHOLE YEAR'S HOURS OF SNOOZE.

story of my life. secrets out. i love sleeping...but i never get enough rest. HAIHHHH~

reason : very wild dreams. EVERY.TIME.I.SLEEP.
its annoying sometimes =.=
what to do.
xoxox

dont scold the innocent. please.

2011-03-26T10:30:00.003+08:00

bwuahaahahhahaha i just realized its one more week to go then March ends, & also...i didnt write anything during Feb. i dont care. really. im sorry. like the previous time(s) i've mentioned, i have no heart here anymore. its time for something new.
having this blog for a long time already...has it been...almost 3 years?

oh well.
findmeifyoucan. bye.

the result of being angry

2011-03-12T20:12:00.004+08:00

I DONT LIKE BEING ANGRY!
because; once you're angry, whatever crap you doing/making...it will turn out ugly
why? because what you project will come from your heart. once your angry, you dont focus right & you project negativity from your soul for the world to see...the world will see your ugliness. NOBODY WANTS TO BE UGLY RIGHT?! seriously; would you wanna be an ugly person?
NO! OF COURSE NOT! so a way to avoid that, dont be angry. focus on happy happy thoughts.
BLAHBLAHBLAH

im so not happy now. im ugly now. because im angry.
i dont like being angry. i dont wanna be ugly. TOOBADICANTHELPITNOW
ROOOOARRRRRRR!!!
okthanksbbye :(

do something.

2011-01-29T12:37:00.002+08:00

i fear.
of many things.

one for example; BEING BORED.
i loathe feeling bored.
the next thing you'll feel is the sense of accomplishing nothing.
ok, not you...ME.
i'd wanna kill myself for doing nothing. gosh.
I REALLY HATE BEING BORED.
its a big large ball of time wasting.

pff. sorry puiling! i really got no mood to tell about my trip to HK. i'll do it in person

UH-OH.

2011-01-13T20:06:00.001+08:00

MY BLOG DIED.
sorry.

i'll revive it soon. but then again; nobody bothers to drop by to read it so...
the consideration of shutting it down is on my mind. tumblr is funner.
honestly. hmmmm...

#488

2010-12-14T11:17:00.003+08:00

i went for the audition. yeah! but i didnt get short listed cause im old maybe? will be receiving my results next year. thats a very long time...well, not really.
UP : i met celine & ida & other new chicks & nice people they are...wahahaha
&&& i sang well during the audition; & i know that because they requested a 2nd song. whoopie! but...
DOWN : i sorta shut off the judges. i just said thank you+went back to my standing spot when i was done when i shoulda see whether they want me to do a 3rd song. aiyooooo...so, i blew my chance of being shot listed, but its ok. 4 weeks to go for my results!

I went to Kukup with my primary schoolmates! they awesome & you oughta know :)
we went boat riding, karaoke in the living room, mahjong (not me), fishing...played alot of silly games & ate! saw fishes & walked in a forest of mangrove trees. the friggin place is very windy in my POV! oh well; tonights boogie night & we gotta dance all night long. hahahahah JK.

OH! new video is out! yea~ i can be your teenage dream
& now you want me to be your girl.
that was a hint. not an actual statement.

sorry puiling; this is all i've got now. this post is short but super sweet. xoxo

thick sticky chocolate syup

2010-12-05T17:14:00.003+08:00

what do you think of that dress? ITS BEAUTIFUL isnt it? hee!! its alicia's. i had a sleepover at her place & we had fun. few days later we managed to produce this; ENJOY!

sitting at coffee bean at changi airport. cailing - fiona - farhan - maurice. babe on the left is currently in switz. missing her much. poor fio had an upset tummy & barfed a few times. im glad shes all better after resting on maurice's sofa bed. yeap, another sleep over. hahaha i must say that red couch is really comfortable!
then the following day which was saturday AKA yesterday we went to orchard then bugis & got some ice-cream during tea time. gr8 times baby...gr8 times & i got scouted! for being a model...super stunned at first; i didnt understand what the lady was saying & before she left, she gave me a name card & got my info. so...yea...im considering. its always been a dream to be honest. it'd be fantastic if i actually earn $$$ through it & not get harassed.
xoxo

rude fuss.

2010-11-29T01:00:00.006+08:00

1AM.
goodmorning dear reader. HELLO. how u doing? hi.

i remember specifically what Rachel darling said when i mentioned i got ready in 5minutes when i woke up late & forced myself to rush.
"huh. 5 minutes...that means you didnt shit & now you're full of shit. literally.
*me being speechless*
what a great greeting right?"

its true. i didnt pooooooo
but i did. afternoon. its personal. LOL
i dont know why im explaining myself. SCREAM YAY FOR MOTHER NATURE!!

another thing. cailing, we'll miss you much although you're still in Malaysia...for now. heeeheee

i took a GORGEOUS picture of her with her camera. [probably upload it on tumblr; look out for my twitter notification] waiting for her to upload it. its a masterpiece really >.< & then walked around everywhere & took pictures. alot alot alot of pictures. heres one from dinner. us girls just happened to wear all white tops coincidentally. great minds think alike!

last week was the last day of school AKA zoey's birthday; we pretty much hung out alot after school hours at the board game cafe & also they went bowling...but i didnt join em cause i had other stuff to get to. i miss my schoolmates already. hahaha they're fun youngsters! & im the oldest sister. heh~

estelle + zoey + me.

birthday girl turned 10. & her enormous cake was delicious!
& happy birthday to esther & jiahui too.
3 birthdays in a row. haha

holidays have officially started for me. its happy. & shitty at the same time due to certain impolite people/person. sheesh. some just never seem to grow up....excluding peterpan. i understand his situation.
xoxo to you.

what am i gonna do?

2010-11-21T00:06:00.003+08:00

the connection is terrible. everything moves slowly. especially youtube videos.

& keyboard letter R hates me. i gotta at least press it twice for one to appear once.

moreover my fingers cant get along...in a way...they keep pressing the wrong letter & i gotta backspace multiple times.

communication + co-orperation.very important. very much aware about that since a long time ago but while hosting my school's Awards Night last thursday made me realize "oh why cant they do things properly?!"

im relief its over. many fellow students feel aimless when its finished.
at least one i know does. haa
but for me, worry was right behind relief.

question for me right now is; HOW LONG AM I GONNA STAY HERE?
i find it a struggle as i am very much behind grades due to my late transfer + old age. i cant keep up as well as the others & what if im done here & ready to go, which path do i take? which school would i go? will i be making a mistake? if i just happen to make one, i'll be super duper uber doomed. as a 50% perfectionist, i expect a lot from myself & especially only myself. pros & cons for everything. im motivated to do things but then again, will it be the right one for me?

being busy & incredibly hyped up for events then suddenly...nothing. sudden changes for not good! gotta balance it out. i need guidance & support. help?

miracle hall. hah. a miracle did happen.
praise God.
but, make it happen again please? for me this time.

i have not yet been to my art exhibition.

2010-11-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

alot of shits have been falling on me these few days.
the weather isnt a big deal but the people...& their attitudes...im going to lose it.
pretty proud to say im fine now. mmm...but then again, RANT ALERT.

just dont give me your emo-zombie mood when i talk to you when i have not offended you & did not ask anything from you. an opinion is an opinion; take it or leave it. its not compulsory to accept it.

whatever others point out this their business but how you react is within your control. therefore, CONTROL YOUR ATTITUDE PLEASE. likewise to myself; i need brushing up.

secondly, if i've troubled you to help me, thank you very much. i am truly grateful, i really am. but FYI that doesnt mean you can take advantage of me & boss me around, go against your word then lecture me about some other shit thats not the point on what we're arguing about.

LALALALA~~ imma hot mess cause cobra starship said so.
im go now. xoxo

sucks when you dont have the answer

2010-11-08T22:37:00.005+08:00

shit im nervous+worried.
after attending my sis' convocation yesterday; my other sis made me realize: what am i gonna do when i grow up?

there. i just got angry. & went quiet too.
then awhile later i asked myself what am i angry at?
answer : for not knowing what to do in the future.
all she did was try to help me but i guess im still mad at myself for being clueless.

oh well. im OK now. still keen to something thats not approving to my father.
my heart is here but he wants it...some where else.
CRAP.

i like this song very much! makes you feel powerful...MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAA!

zoey made me card today.
fixing the computer on my own this afternoon.
jo ann giving me the link to WGM-yonghwa couple just now.
these are a few things that made my day today.
theres better things to be happy at than be angry/sad/upset about. REMEMBER THAT.
good luck to us! for the obsticles ahead of us in the future.
cheers! xoxo

没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌没礼貌

2010-11-01T23:30:00.006+08:00

born 7 years ago & knows how to say "ooh-la-la sexy bra".
au revoir xoxo.

laugh, cry & suffer.

2010-10-31T22:35:00.007+08:00

i can smile; but not in front of you.
i only frown because you made me so.
im sorry but i dont wanna be like this either.
cant imagine anybody wishing to be in this state.

you dont apologize or ask why
you just carry on like nothing happened
again & again you do this all the time
yesterday was a blast
today was a nightmare
& tomorrow you dont recall a thing.

since you're doing this every single time
i might as well start getting used to this seriously
or else the neighborhood will hear me once more.
shut off & run away...yeah.
that'd be fun. only if i had my driver's licence & passport
you wont see me later.

i love you but you make me hate you.
you told me 'history repeats itself'
i truly understand that now.

conclusion, you ask? so whats the point?
you'll do this again next week.

happy halloween guys; my weekend was a dramatic nightmare but also a super wonderful time.
what about yours?
xoxo. i wanna hear all about it before you know mine.

dont make my ears bleed.

2010-10-17T22:52:00.005+08:00

bunk beds. wasnt used to sleeping on em; especially at a 7 feet above ground level height. FUN! but not used to it...thus causing me to lack proper sleep in camp & i turned out to be super tired when i came back home. the dark picture below is dearest estelle & i on my bed. MUAHAHAHHAHAAHAAHAAHHAA DAEBAK!

ok. long legs, daisy dukes. makes a man go...?
should all parents go f--king anxious/over-reactive when theirr daughters wear shorts out! SHUT OFF M**. grrrrrr you're the reason why i cant smile at/with/around you anymore. you didnt go out last time when you were my age not because you had no freedom, but because you didnt want to...you were shy & somewhat anti-social. that doesnt big-time mean i will follow your sad sad lonely footsteps cause they're pathetic! ITS PAINFUL BEING ALONE & FRIENDLESS. dont tell me what you couldnt do in the past because most of them are lies. i dont wanna end up like you.
& dont friggin think about match-making me; im married! ON FACEBOOK.
you're not that a good role model anyways.

LIM YUHAN IS A SUPERMAN! 林友汉是个超人!
he flews & fell & hes fine!
& im the B.I.T.C.H. in disguise.

ironic spontaneous-ness. paramore is still my remedy. hayley wiliams; thank you for writing ignorance. I MISS MY FAMILY MUCH, i shall go to KL next month!! teehee xoxo

time to wake up; september ended.

2010-10-03T23:45:00.004+08:00

time to blog. for real.

just now i open & closed this blogger : new post page twice.
like they say, third times the charm.
my weekend was exciting; i went to around town & here & there. tebrau city area twice.
one for a movie, go watch EatPrayLove; it was amazing. simple but pleasant.
the other time was for miss KMH's sweet 16. time flies...& i was late to her party 135minutes late ( meihong im so sorry ) but we all had fun. they played with water while i hid myself & stayed away from those soaking wet + soapy people...HER CAKE WAS DELICIOUS ... i've never had a baskin&robbins cake before. teehee~

later that night she & some others purposely hugged me which caused my hair+back to smell like the soap. after that i checked out her room while she was in the shower & took some photos wearing her sunnies&belt.

*the internet connection is suddenly
* the photo below was taken by her friendly maid hahahahaha

happy to be there but all fun things always come to an end. i left her house after spending an hour at her place mom picked me up & went home.

words of wisdom for today : DO NOT BE ANGRY...cause then you'll curse & say shit loads of things you dont mean & hurt people.

love life always. xoxo

hah..mom smells like butter cookies

2010-09-27T22:55:00.005+08:00

would you look at the time! im suppose to sleep now; & thats what i tell myself every single night : SLEEP EARLY.
never happens. no. just doesnt happen.
although, it deosnt seem that bad to me as long as i napped in the afternoon...which was funny, in a way. i woke up 2 hours later with my body position rotated 180degrees. & i was freaking blur; especially when i couldnt remember what i dreamt of
sheesh. i hate that. you wake up clueless from what shit just happened in your head & everythings so confusing

teacher Gan managed to force me to finish 12 pages of tiny weensy words of HG in 100+ minutes
yes; i need such discipline otherwise i rot.
ok. enough about silly crap that happened today.
last thursday was super at convent's installation. surprisingly i had fun; especially with jinghuei, diong & yongjun. then friday was tiring. & cool, had fun at the..umm...mid-autumn+hariraya neighborhood celebration. free food, drinks & lanterns! had so much fun playing with the one shaped like a hot-air balloon; you burn wax then the hot air gets trapped in the bag...[see the picture below] get what i mean now?

doesnt matter if you dont. its just feels good being a kid again & trying out new traditional toys like that. yeap, this was my first successful attempt to...make it take off & float away.

saturday was madness. happiest part was when my vocal trainer told me i improved.
the other things happened were just...casual. but watching batman begins was great too! church was nice; too bad i couldnt stay long because i had a meeting to go to. but the facial after lunch was pretty relaxing. my first time ever getting it professionally. hahaha!
come to think of it. i've been napping everyday since saturday. wow. what a privilege...so seldom i get to do that. however, i still sleep late every night...so im still tired during daytime.

time to snooze. im ready for HongKong!
muahahahahahhhaa i need to catch up on my cantonese. fast.
xoxoxo

cut down sweet sugary food

2010-09-22T22:17:00.010+08:00

i took some shit-yeah!-awesome photos yesterday during dinner with fiona, justin, rachel & luke! didnt know i'd return home at 10pm++ & kena questioned my dad but its alright kekeke~
super duper happy i hung out with those people; especially when i found out McDs' was still open at 10pm & we got ice-cream for spontaneous dessert muahaahhahahhaha!! then when i got home; justin+fiona turned out to be our stalkers for the evening.

.
HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL! or MID-AUTUMN!
or something...
whatever you call it; go play with lanterns!

& stuff yourselves with moon cake. oh 冰皮月饼....

xoxo
p/s be thankful for your parents. & your friends. & those around you. love&cherish them.

"only old people are long sighted"

2010-09-12T14:49:00.005+08:00

about the title : THANKS DAD.
hah its been a week! since i updated i mean. firstly; thank you for your awesome birthday wishes + the presents that you gave me...

so anyways;
BFFs. monday. the date when i was born 17 years ago.
geez. thats alot of years. something popped up & in the end i went out only with my best friend. which was super duper awesome! hahaha i lied through my teeth to watch a very violent movie & this was taken went we were about to cross the busy street. love it.
& i love this one too. taken in redbox when i was out with jiayee, jiahui, estelle&vishelle having a blast! we then headed for korean food by the sea but unfortunately vishelle couldnt join us cause she had a party to attend.

i had a stomachache after that meal. i dont know what cause it but i still enjoyed my meal however. thursday i got to play with clay! the whole day! man it was tiring! was starving when i arrived home.
went to singapore to see the RYLA gang the next but visited najwa's for her raya open house 1st ...man it was fun! then JAM! at the causeway. which sucks. but i must say: I THANK SINGAPORE FOR BUS LANES! it made my journey speed up.
we went to watch the haunted changi...which was pretty freaky. then had diner at waruku! & walked around & talked alot but i stupidly forgot to take photos -.-
that was the dumbest thing that happened to me that day.
then yesterday i got my eyes checked & apparently im LONG SIGHTED. roflmaowtfbbq right!? i got it from my mama. hmmm...but my specs are pretty...
they'll be arriving one week later. gosh i have to suffer for another week! heh whatthefish. goodbye xoxo

recieved 2; deliver the other 2.

2010-09-05T17:37:00.005+08:00

i have decided to blog on the last day of being 16.
sheesh; just went to a birthday party yesterday of miss VYL & she just turned 16. life passes so fast. hmm whatever.

AT KL PICS:
this pretty girl who just came out from the shower is the mastermind behind all the double surprise party planning.
this is my eldest sis & i in the car on the way home from church+lunch.
this is kimberley's desk. thats me blogging on the screen. figures huh. was suppose to head back to JB the next day but...

...i couldnt turn down dear kellie's offer to bring me out with the others. we had lunch together at tonyroma's & when shopping after that while jiekath stay in the restaurant to finish her late discovered homework. her friends are noobs -.-i miss them very much; it'd be totally awesome if i could celebrate my birthday with them but too bad. we're too far away + its been celebrated already. oh well. we watched PCK the movie which was lame so i thought it was time&$ wasting. not recommended. & guess what; never in my life i wasted 25mins of my life in a cinema watching a WRONG MOVIE PLAYED. aihh. whatthebeep. so anyways; i hopped on the earliest bus home the next morning & went to school for baking session...which turned out horrible because i failed. but its ok.

thurs&fri was shitty. in a way. cause i had not much time to do much work. & then hols = now.
then my official day of adding one to my current age. i hope i have fun.

突然被放飞机的感觉令我失望

my birthday wish? i have to many to list.
i'll tell you one though; STOP CALLING ME KIMBERLEY.
thank you.
xoxo

the jokes on me in the end.

2010-08-31T00:18:00.004+08:00

wooof! im currently blogging with my sis' laptop in KL. well, in bukit jalil now to be exact.

i miss all my friends in school & especially those that i have not seen in super long ages.

so anyways; to celine the master mind, thank you for the lovely surprise that made me cry. yeap, i cried...cause imma crybaby. hahaha!
as i thought it was only a surprise for kim; turned out to be a surprise for me too! to those sneaky asses who made it happen; thank you very much. i would like to return the favor someday too.
tears of joy i say.

after reuniting with my siblings i must say i have become...an itchy mouth. as in; i cant stop eating because they have so much food there! theres chocolates, bread, noodles, cakes, dumplings, etcetc junk foods! on the first hour of kim's 19th birthday; we had pizza & cakes & i had a chocolate facial by my sis which ...wasnt a purifying masks to be exact. i ended up with a pimple on my chin the next morning.

saturday afternoon was madness; we head to the supermarket to get ingredients for the upcoming picnic in the park which turned out to be fantastically fun! we ate sandwiches & chips & took tonnes of photos! we also did dares & climbed up the tower to see the sunset. man i miss it already. fun didnt stop there; we caught the movie STEP UP 3 at 9.15pm & you have to go catch it! its so nice to watch! just go watch it & you'll understand what i mean. superb!

sleep super late that night & woke up late for church. mom nagged. as usual. but its ok. she cares....negatively...for our good. hmm
i finally met alvin which i didnt remember from church camp but hey! its good seeing him & christine & samuel (again) & meeting jolene, keven, keith, yi thing, etc.that afternoon i planned to nap for one hour only but hitting the snooze button on my alarm led to another snooze button & to another snooze button; i slept for 3 or 4 hours...cant remember exactly. i finally got up at 6pm++ & picked up kel & got stationary for mom. had a bowl of noodles mom cooked at midnight...bad? i totally know.

wanted to get this cute skirt this afternoon :but the zipper was a big problem. i mean, not just for one but for all, even if its a different size; the issue still occurs. the factory's QC should really do their jobs! refusing to leave the mall empty handed i spend $$ on ...items i wont reveal to you...you dont need to know hahaha!
then kim & i went to pick up jo ann & we head for the karaoke green box...place...which i've never heard of before ever...but its actually very similar to red box....just better. you get to refill your drinks & snacks as many times as you want & the people there are much nicer & friendlier... good service i must mention. i wish i can do it again. time flies when you're having fun so it all went by so soon. theres always next time i guess.

ughh...heading back to JB tomorrow. i mean today, later. this afternoon. i hate going home alone. literally there would be a bus full of people travelling with me but you get what i mean.
pfff. time for bed. i hate mosquito bites. just got kissed in the forehead a while ago. pests.

xoxo

good patch up.

2010-08-23T22:08:00.006+08:00

things i just did :go to facebook & clicked on "ignore" countless times & watched many SMTOWN LIVE'10 fancam videos on youtube. still searching for clearer + less shaky ones. heehee! sounds boring??

i'll tell you whats not boring; MY FIRST DATE WITH ESTELLE. hahaha!

we went to MR. BAOZ for dinner & it was slightly sad. they sold out their 'bao's & we had no choice but to eat other not-so-yummy food like burgers & rice. we should have went to somewhere else but before we could, it was too late. we already finished the food.
wanna know where good food is at? KIMCHI&BBQ. seriously. call me a regular; i enjoy the food there. & i met 2 cute little korean boy who refused to eat with their parents because they are...kids. good posers i must say.

was tired when i reached home. but i couldnt rest just yet. i gave my word to mom about baby sitting her friend's daughter. i must have done a pretty good job because she whined, cried & refused to get into the car when it was time to go home.

meihong & grace.
this one was taken yesterday night when i attended a concert by wai yin ching & students music concert. their performances were really amazing. i finally got to see my vocal trainer/teacher sing & she did fantastic. as always i guess. by the end of the event, i was hungry but more thirsty. my ulcers were crying out to me. & an embarrassing thing happened to me.

i was calling to grace to ask her to take a photo of me & meihong. "ah grace!" i called out. & a lady walking pass responded to me. we exchanged facial expressions & i wanted to explain i wasnt referring to her, but somehow all i could make out was "im sorry...act...". then i saw her name tag & stupidly read her name out loud. so she gave me a look as if she expects me to say something to her. "your blouse...is very nice...its pink"
yea yea; i gave myself a smack on the forehead spiritually. meihong&grace were grinning away.
her name is doris & she gave me a pleasant/grateful smile & walked away.
i feel guilty. in a way. like, i cheated her smile.

heh...life aint that bad. i know worse scenarios...xoxo

we welcome weekends

2010-08-19T21:40:00.003+08:00

sweet dreams dont happen to me often; in fact, they occur insanely rarely! like once out of 2 years of nightmare facing. you have no idea what i see in my mind...
...but yesterday i had one of the best ever.
i dreamed i hugged+chatted with minho from SHINee, my favorite kpop boy group & i got to say hi to onew the leader. didnt really out much thought on the other 3 members...cause...i had to wake up already.

I OVERSLEPT. it was 10 minutes to 9am & i jumped out of bed after hearing "ryn, do you have class today?" from mom through the intercom. sheesh. i hate being late for things. & forgetting to set the alarm the previous night. but i had an awesome dream so kids, theres a price for everything. my example : a sweet dream for punctuality to class.
anyways mom dropped me at school 20minutes later when i was ready.

ahhh i wish to dream beautiful dreams more often.

HOW DO YOU LIKE MY NEW BLOGSKIN?

love it? hate it? too pink? very girly huh?
i like it....no? dont'chu too?
hahahah till then...xoxo

mr. boogie; if i want to...i can have you.

2010-08-16T21:53:00.008+08:00

first of all; before i wanna tell you the difference between 2 pieces of clothing that we wear when its cold.

now now, here we have a beige coat on the LEFT & is blue jacket on the RIGHT.
that's all for todays lesson.

"...allowing ages 12 & below only"

how was your holiday last wednesday?
mine...kinda...went down the drain cause whatever was planned is being postponed but no worries, it wasn't that bad anyways. saw tall cute chinese basketball players during dinner & i also fell sick that day. bad cold....& despite that, i went out with kim, jo ann & see wei to stroll around danga bay. we got a warning for sitting on the swings by the guard there cause we're too old for 'em. hahahah but everything turned out fine after all. my weekend was great.

scribbles by elizabeth!

friday was a blast; we went to celebrate CCY'S 17th birthday.

the food was slightly pricey but the amount was a lot but not that tasty so...you be the judge.
we played pool before dining & presented gifts to her!

post eating.
& a chicken for CCY!

i had a blast. it wasn't bad at all. im super duper happy i got my 'kegiatan' & still waiting for my expedition badge. & yesterday at church, i saw the cutest sleeping baby position!

right? you just can't disagree with me on this one!
kim is home! but i never mentioned she left so it doesnt matter; this is dad smiling widely after talking about how great she is as THE TOP STUDENT in her college!

haih. i'll find some other way to make him proud too. heehee!
i took a nap this afternoon after arriving home from school & dozed off on the couch. i only woke up when dad & the others came home from work which was 2 hours later. im very energized now. see you! xoxo CLICK ME I'M YOUR TEENAGE DREAM.

their English is better than Mandrin.

2010-08-11T11:48:00.007+08:00

haih. im back.
was gonna update this dump yesterday but my connection wouldn't allow me
so i chatted with my dear friends instead & did all the usual crap as always...go figure.

i left school early the last friday just to try to arrive at EC's installation on time which i did fortunately because they delayed the event for an hour. its a good thing to be 'late' sometimes cause its punctuality in another form. sometimes, it only applies sometimes....just saying. im really happy many people liked my outfit for that day, & tremendously grateful; honestly, i had no idea anybody would care. so; thank y'all trillions.

the next day i attended SMKST's IU day which is little in terms of activities & performances but i had fun anyways; as long as i get to see my beloved friends, especially dear BFF kwanhuien
& a small dedication to miss CCY for she couldn't attend that day... [shes in the photo alright, behind a door short & white. see this photo in my FB album to know what i mean]

& on sunday! Hong Kong scouts from ages as young as 8 to...16? perhaps? came by & i had the privilege to meet & play with them. unfortunately my phone was really low in battery power so i didnt have much opportunity of taking pictures with them on my phone; however, jiawei did take a couple, with me in them.
the one see here below is yaxuan & i + kaishing's sexy back view after dining with them Honkies.

that's all for now. see you later then!
its a holiday today; do something productive!
selamat buka puasa. good luck!

ollive green poo!

2010-07-31T22:00:00.006+08:00

today i told myself i had to blog. or else this place will turn dusty. imaginarily dusty.
yea...i just made up a word again. ha! but look at the bright side; you get to see many pics!

ok. first up: staying back at school to do extra work which i struggled through though i seem like chatting alot & not studying, im grateful i had friends to keep me awake that day. talking to me keeps me awake. uh-ha uh-ha

lunch with CCY when nobody could accompany me. we spend 2hours+ at kimchi&bbq eating & singing along with the Kpop songs played!

last monday i slept over dear estelle's place for fun & she demonstrated how to talk & eat at the same time. then on wednesday we had our weekly baking...not lesson...um...baking activity. which we do 97% of the things without teacher's help

GINGERBREAD GIRLS! & one retarded tough cookie

made this for fun...can u see its face? >>> ^.^

oh oh oh! few days ago it rained. madly. FRIDAY!
oooh that was just yesterday
hahaha i walked to school in the rain. carrying an umbrella of course. i woke up at 7.20...then 7.30...then 7.40 it freaking rained for like...7 secs. then it stopped. then it rained heavily 5 secs later like it was a storm & i couldnt get back to sleep after that.

skip skip skip. today! a green spider landed on me. i didnt freak. instead, i took that picture & kite flying was on again. its fun! but i didnt join em cause of the heat & the sun exposure & i was so tired+lazy so...i took that photo

ok shitty story: i had a horrible tummyache 2 days ago & i freaking felt like there were aliens in my tummy eating up my organs like those ones from alien vs predator or some poop like that. & to cut short the story, i just really had to crap thats all. just wanted you to know that was the worst stomachache i had ever! in my life. period.

2007

2009

i didnt know until a few days ago they kinda "copied" corbin's song. hahaha
but still. SHINee's one is still nicer.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xoxo

-on the phone with kim; shes at MTV stage now kekeke~
p/s doncha hate it when they delay performances.

good or bad?

2010-07-20T19:44:00.010+08:00

gosh. time flew by again.

i remembered repeating "have you registered" for countless times as i volunteered to help people register to vote. man , it was tiring but i manage to keep a smile on constantly cause i find it funny when people reject me. obviously they dont know what they're missing out on.
ahhh seriously. later that night was fun! went to the old town behind CS for my art exhibition!

out of 120+ drawings; this one was chosen to be 1/8 pieces of postcards. makes me proud of myself. kekekeke~

happy birthday to all JULY BABIES! im not gonna list all cause thats impossible but i know having sushi with hui en was fun! especially when its a secret private party & you get to run wherever you want after that without your parents worrying about you. it gets better when you get to see a dearly missed sister & chat all night with you loved ones until 3am+.

but of course, everything has its ups&downs. i was tired & energy-less the next day went i went to singapore to walk around. haa...its was just fine until something popped up : i lost my watch. except it was just any ordinary watch; its a watch in a ring. :(
perhaps its meant for somebody else. only God knows.

after church on sunday i went for weekang's birthday celebration & met new friends. cool thing about that was, i was totally energized when i was with his friends & i met shiyuen; who shares the same birthday as me, but one year earlier!

turns out im very free for this whole week. vocal lessons & art classes happened to be hold coincidentally...makes me wanna go shopping. xoxo

loverholic robotonic loveholic robotronic. most of the time Kpop dont make much sense in terms of lyric but they're beeping addictive&catchy

learning cantonese in progress

2010-07-07T23:00:00.004+08:00

ahhh poop.
the last post was last month. like ten days ago....
I HAVE AN EXPLANATION FOR ALL THIS!

i was lazy to blog. yea i know; totally typical of me. but hear out the 2nd reason : i had no internet connection for a week. weds-mon. 6 days; almost a week ~
imagine being unable to go to facebook & update you life for you friends to see...
imagine being anable to tweet whatever interesting crap that comes into your mind
imagine being unable to check out new videos on your subscription list on youtube.
& blog. you cant blog or visit tumblr.

oh well. its good to be back...connected to the internet!
but its slow. really slow compared to the last time i used it. probably the weather is cranking it.

so its time for crap that happened to me :
alicia's back. very happy about that. miss her much.
dad got me new headphones from the PC fair which was awesome.
& yesterday was funtabulous as i went to see my gang again + its 4 in one party. its mad to have so many july babies as friends; kinda burns your pocket. hahaha!

sorry no photos! comment please.
im wishing for many things right now. xoxo

korea lost!

2010-06-27T00:25:00.003+08:00

my bro help me take this picture when he was packing. yummy chewy caramel wafer chocolate marc got me from melbourne! DELICIOUS. shan i miss you much; now cant do the "sorry to keep you waitin' " crap already

my friends came by after school & had some rocky road the other day. isnt that pretty? girl/headbad/photo whatever...hahaha

my karaoke trip with my awesome gang...so excited i forgot to ask dad for permission & got almost busted that night hahahhaha

elizabeth's party at monstar's cafe. fun place to be. + the kids there were just so full of energy, i didnt feel tired at all...as i sucked power outta their tiny bodies! muahahahhahahha
the food there was gr8! & you can doodle on their walls! *see example below

grace.me.estelle.

OK folks. see you soon. i have to change the blog skin soon otherwise i might kill myself being bored to death looking at it...
alicia alicia alicia is back from aussieland! wheeeeeeee...

salad : cheese overload

2010-06-18T23:44:00.007+08:00

today was just sad. except for the webcamming session with dear alicia in australia + the BBQ dinner i had after that + my visitation to cheryl&charmaine's house after that. haha

i stayed all day at home & slept alot. took a 2 hour nap moments after my lunch. i seriously cannot tolerate not going out on a holiday. its just not fun! makes me feel like shit.
by shit i mean friggin useless & my time wasted. sheesh.
schools gonna restart soon & i havent had enough. i must go somewhere tomorrow otherwise i might go mad. oh well, at least my previous days were much much fun
like visiting my dear adorable....nephew+niece? my cousin's kids!

mon+tuesday i went to singapore with my friends

we went cycling, swimming & had BBQ. unfortunately something popped up & we had to say goodbye to $150. we enjoyed ourselves anyway. that amount of bling come back sooner or later; & it could be an even bigger amount! *praying*

next day i attended my primary school gathering & mind you these arent all the girls there. & the boys were even more than us girls....i think.

thurs: SDJ campfire. dinner was delayed horribly. something else effected my mood during the campfire. heh...whats done is done. & today was...just sad. good night!
OSL welcome back. KO3 quickly come home ! xoxoxoxoxooxox

candy land! the MV is inversed/terbalik which is weird. but nevermind.

prunes for breakfast!

2010-06-12T10:35:00.006+08:00

yea i know its been a long while. somehow i just couldnt get myself to blog & always say later. well, 'later' has arrived!

kenneth at starbuck last month! this is barney stinson without a suit.
we later drove to tebrau city to use the toilet.

this is my lovely left hand covered in pastel powder A.K.A. art

CAMP LIFE'10 ; we didnt (get to) sleep much. we talked all night > morning on the 1st night there then had not much energy to work the next day. thank goodness i wasnt assigned to a very important position otherwise i couldnt nap. it was cool; cause the classrooms had A/Cs.......

plastic rachel. plastic plastic plastic. maurice's plan to scare us ( peiyin, kaishing & i) failed horribly. heads up : the pause was too long.

the reason why i was on the papers.
i attended an art activity with 151 other students; mainly kids. we had pizza hut for lunch! i miss that oily trans fat carbs....
& the next day:

LUNCH WITH JEREMY! + hui en to celebrate jeremy's birthday which was on the 9th of june. if you look closely or remember my birthdate; mines terbalik of his! in POV: the movie 'karate kid' should be changed to 'kung fu kid'

this was yesterday; at siam kitchen in singapore bugis junction mall....having awful thai food; please dont go there. out of the..umm...6 or 8 waiters; only 2 smile. they rest just have a stern mask on. this is zoe; we shared the same primary school & we go out occasionally. haha
i bought a cute anpanman pouch whom i've loved since i was ...tiny ... & brand new shoes!

today is a day to relax. haha; the fun restarts tomorrow! come back again soon; like a week later? i'd have much to tell. xoxo bb!!

go offline in my face?!

2010-05-27T23:03:00.007+08:00

sad case : my trip got canceled. no biggie, the holidays are coming up soon. was slight mad & disappointed but shopping can wait. teehee!

i've started my new piece today. just now. & i ate 5 single tuna sandwiches. DIY style! i feel so proud of myself...because i know how to take care of myself. haha
so its a school holiday tomorrow called 'vesak day', & that struck me; im gonna be bored! BORED! if i dont get out of the house. so...shitty. & it also made me realize, "vesak" can be mistaken as "wesak" & therefore tomorrow's holiday would be called WE SUCK DAY.
i cant help but tell you lame stuff because im bored...grr...another 3 more days of school & the term will be over! then the next one would pop up. but its ok, thats just what time does. see ya!

the picture above is what i did today at school, refresh my chinese vocab + plan my time + cantonese!

i felt the japanese-ness today

2010-05-23T22:00:00.005+08:00

=.=
my current face no. >>>> =.=
no smile. since this afternoon when my mom scolded & accused me for being angry at her, when i was just uninterested of whatever songs the radio stations were playing; so i put on my earphones & listened to Kpop. she happened to be nagging about how i dont appreciate her well enough & im incredibly ungrateful.
emo emo emo. i hate being misunderstood. i hate being scolded after being misunderstood especially. after that she didnt apologize. which is totally normal. wearing this face > =.= is also totally normal. hmph.

DO NOT SMOKE.
TOBACCO IS EVIL.
you should know better.

i know how to smile FYI...just not doing that now. gah
im going to KL soon. on wednesday? yea. ok. muahahhahahahhahahaaaa ITS GONNA BE A SHORT & AWESOME TRIP. right kenneth?
i wedcam-ed with my beloved sisters yesterday & took a super nice screen shot too; but im stoopid enough to screw up my part of the photo. kudos for me. "yay"

everybody left one by one without waiting for my "goodnight & byebye" reply. hah.

say : da-da! > MOTHER.

2010-05-20T21:31:00.005+08:00

i know i know its been a very long time since i blogged. the truth is i've been busy & i lost my blogger password weeks back, was too lazy to bother getting it remade so ... i dragged. & time flew. so, there i am! but if you really want updates about my life you should just text me or check out facebook. i feel lazy to blog sometimes :/

mom & i on mom's day :)
sambil jalan sambil take pic thats why its blur
speaking of mom; this is my baby!

my very 1st pastel painting which im happy of.
my result of 36 hours of hard work? heehee

DIY sushi at nammoon last saturday. funny crap happened.

these few days will be busy & full of stuffs to do! hopefully i get to update y'all about it. even though i have no friggin idea who come here...

taps with unique knobs

2010-05-08T22:44:00.003+08:00

oh no; almost bedtime & im hungry. but thats wayyyyy besides the point im gonna make!
ANOTHER FREAKY THING HAPPENED TO ME JUST NOW!
note: freaky things had happened to me before

this morning i went to the scout activity i regularly attend every saturday; (unless there aint to activity.) so! Diong got me chocolates for "chocolate day" which apparently existed out of ...no where. but nevermind, THANK YOU VERY MUCH if you're reading this!

then mom picked me up after & brought me to lunch at Cheesolicious. yumm i say. YUMM! i order the tuna bruchetta! i have not a slightest idea whether i remembered the correct name for what i had. teeheee! but its alright! because my mom's friend who joined us for lunch gave me a abosultely cute pink japanese umbrella, just because. & its from hong kong! i love it much! wahhahahahah

next i had my vocal lessons then walked home & showered. got ready & went to ramond's place with hui en to see him+ngwei+tiensun+joann+tracy+peiwen...ahh great memories...
like 2 hours later HE&i went to the salon & i got a hair trim. then we went to the home deco shop next door to browse & kill time cause mom wouldnt answer my phone. but its alright we got candy & snacks & went our separate ways....
when mom picked me up & randomly went to giant to get groceries & randomly wanted to watch Ironman2 when she saw the poster. wahahahaha in the end i had sugar-colored+flavored waffles & cup corn for dinner. the movie was super duper cool, in my head. hahaha although you might think the ending is totally epic; i dont blame you; because it is.

well, as you may not know. none of the above is the freaky thing im referred about. moving on...
we drove home & slowly brought in the bags of groceries into the kitchen. as i was about the carry the 2nd batch of bags from the car into the house i saw the door behind the driver's door was OPENED! mom said she didnt open that door either...
wooohhh~~~ spookyyyyy
there wasnt a thieve or anything stolen from us. the dogs didnt bark. the door just...opened...by itself?

oh well. goodnight world! happy birthday whose birthday is ...here. ha
xoxo

a-lizard-bird

2010-05-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

im waiting im waiting im waiting.
SM entertainment has delayed the video im expecting for 2 days now. fooled me.
today was such a long day. im so tired! just as i thought i could relax for the night i was reminded about my art homework. ughh!! & to add another boo-hoo part to my day; i was lectured for multiple times for somethings i didnt even do or were relevant to
WTF; my life has sucked quite many these past few days. hopefully its just temporary. otherwise i should learn to get used to this.

xoxo

spicy food with cheese cake.

2010-04-30T01:00:00.005+08:00

dot dot dot-dot-dot. addicted to this song; thanks TCW ^^

i didnt bring you to my favourite restaurant for a treat because i have trust issues with you.
like the parable about the foolish son who took all his $ from his father went to spend it on silly things, felt so ashamed to go home so he almost worked to death, then finally decided to go back home. his father welcomed him home with widely opened arms & celebrated upon his return.
are you ready to grow up now? or do you want another shocking event that made you wish you'd die situation to happen on you again?

xoxo

drink water for a healthy body!

2010-04-21T20:28:00.007+08:00

i dont know what i ate, somehow my lips turned bitter now.
probably something i drank. or not. i really have no idea.
i saw puppies at the park today! 7 of them! so adorable!

this one says : HANG ON THERE! :p

yesterday was tiring! grrr!
i woke up at 7.30AM since a very long time ago & reached school before 8.15
3 newbies in my school, current population : i dont know. didnt count.
we hopped on the bus & headed for Kluang slightly before 9am & went to ZenXin organic park for a tour & plucked paid-for sweet potato leaves! then we went to Claytan factory to see how ceramic items were made... fun fact : they have Malaysia's largest ceramic bowl! then we head back to the organic park for lunch & to plant 3 chinese cabbage per person, ready to harvest in 29 more days. next up, we went to the goat farm, my bag got pulled by a curious goat! i also got a chance to carry a 3-day-old baby kid & drank a sip of fresh goat's milk!
we left around 4pm+ & i reached home around 6pm. man! what a long day it was...mom over cooked again. & again. pfff...today also. but her cooking is still the best!

webcaming is fun with friends!
i always forget what i wanted to blog about. memory errors...tsk...us humans.
xoxo

20 star jumps

2010-04-18T16:15:00.005+08:00

im blogging from my brand new PC!
happy happy happy!
my old laptop is so old! used it for 4-5 years already...now its being repaired.
old stuff. heh

check it out:
introducing...

the nicest korean restaurant owner i've met!

hahaha! looks amazing with the black bunny ears on right?
check out the rest of the photo we took here
go to KIMCHI&BBQ in pelangi to support him; hes awesomly friendly! especially towards students

cool huh?

xoxo

adrenaline packed

2010-04-13T20:42:00.003+08:00

old things.
not everything can last as long as buried plastic.
for instance, my computer!
miss me much?
its been a while since i blogged i know. cant blame me for non-lasting electric stuffs.
but yay me im getting a new computer this friday. i think.
Well at least thats what dad says. im happy already.
wanna know what else made me happy?
a parcel from australia! thanks chris, very sweet of you.

chocolates. chocolate cake. hah!
went out with my gang this afternoon for an early dinner. the outing was so short! i miss them plenty already. going to convent's iu day tomorrow...hoping it'll be super fun.

i miss life after being sick for a week; was down with a sore throat + high fever last last weekend then when i was at the point of being absolutely well, i had skin allergy. itchy itchy itchy...but im all better now; THANK GOD!

hope you had a better beginning of April. xoxo

evil binbin rice crackers

2010-04-03T19:40:00.005+08:00

yesterday, i didnt sleep well as i thought i was having another nightmare where my throat itself was killing me. i woke up several times in the middle of the night & realized it wasnt in my head but really, i was having a painful sore throat.
in the morning i woke up with a high fever & turns out, my plans for the day: art class+scouts were cancelled. the things i did all day was gurgle, drank honey + water + soup, pee & sleep.

today, i no longer walk dizzily. but i was unhappy because i was woken up by a phone call, telling me to do this & that for him, disrupting my peaceful sleep. however, i shant be oh!-so-sensitive because my condition was way better than yesterday. praise God!
p/s i coughed out bloody phlegm today that was the biggest i've ever seen in my life!

thank you for caring for me. please understand when i straight forwardly tell you off saying i am busy. thanks

kids, remember to drink lots of fluids everyday, especially after you've eaten many dry snacks.
xoxo

golden smudges.

2010-04-01T16:53:00.004+08:00

so many things went by just like that.
for instance; some kid's parents complained about fella falling sick after sports day's marching blahblahblah & thus no will be no activities for SMKST. great.
bigger issue : the head of discipline teacher i think, doesnt want me to go back for activities just so because if anything happens to me, i wont sue them.
yeah. im that free.
right.
ignore, ignoring, ignored. i have to sign papers...

ok so last saturday aunty anna+uncle alex+rourou brought shan&i to this awesome complimentary buffet dinner at salt&pepper restaurant!
food was good, the lights suddenly went dim which kinda puzzled me...until i realized it was earth hour.
then on tuesday, while we were sawing wood to make a table, artistic-ism suddenly striked upon huien & baoleong. + i bruised my left index finger. ouch

too bad zhengyue was absent.

went to CS with estelle yesterday. fun. could have been better but its alright.
i slept at 3.40am this morning because i had to finish my copy-cat art piece.
my eyes are insanely tired but somehow meihong said they look better because of my lack of sleep. haha

finally tomorrow, my first good friday school holiday. im still going to a school anyways, i'd go insane if i dont leave the house or keep myself busy.

OH! & HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL. pulled anybody's leg yet? if you wanna do it, do it right. dont say something thats very likely to happen 4 months later, EXAMPLE : you're gonna transfer to a new school
till then next time.
what am i saying?! xoxo

pale face painted with purple poop.

2010-03-22T21:18:00.007+08:00

today i woke up content.
i did my routine crap i do every morning & walked to school like every other school days.
then there was worship time at 9AM & teacher's story telling.
the rest was just ordinary.
yes, my day was ordinary-ordinary.
except when estelle mentioned 3 times today how pale i looked; not to mention how lack of energy when i did my work. made me wonder when i felt the absence of happiness&enthusiasm after having a proper good night's rest.

so anyways! my holidays were alright. i wouldnt say it was great because of the sudden canclelations; they really suck. special circumstances popped up & my days were ruined. but its ok, at the end of it(the week), i had a splendid thursday afternoon watching aliceinwonderland with my beloved best friend hui en the 'turtle'. that night was horrid though, emo-ness fell upon me & my soul was drifted apart from bliss. well, leave me alone & i'll be fine after a couple hours...
result : i was fine after a few hours.
then friday was much much better! had a really relaxing morning then a radical korean lunch with melvin+maurice+rachel+diong+sean. & random as rachel & i hit the mall & watched an incredibly boring movie called underthemountain. ppfffff. piece of shit. sorry but honestly the movie stunk real bad!
partied with fiona & the rest at her place on saturday! man! it was really exciting at the start, then it got boring for me cause somebody said a certain something that made me go >>> [-_-'], then the mood transformed into joy after 2 hours i think? [reason: i friggin heard SuJu's SUPERGIRL live through telephone! muahahahahhahahahah 幸福 ] conclusion; great party!

happy birthday to all the March babies.
may you have a mad i-was-born-on-this-date-day.

& may i present the glamorous photo of the day :

TA-DAA!!! JK.

i do like the one below though. kodus to leonie for this awesome picture!
agree? ^^

thats all for tonight folks! tune in days later to know whats going on in my life.
xoxo

why is the raven similar to a writing desk?

2010-03-18T21:22:00.005+08:00

whats going on with me? i dont know either. feeling down cause the plans i planned didnt make it & my days spent was totally out of the blue; which i am so not used to because im a planner. i like to plan & see the end result of a happy day.

randomly going out is only fun at night. or when you're hyped up because your bestest friends will be spending time with you. honestly, this is the worst term break i can remember.

but on the other hand, i did have fun. my outing were that bad; they were just pathetically short. makes me feel like i have no life; shitty feeling i tell you.
HIGHLIGHTS so far: hanging out at McD's with jiayee&the other & watching AIW with huien.

the rest went bogus.
help me please?

i like to eat salmon

2010-03-14T22:06:00.005+08:00

you are an obnoxious jackass because you simply insult & negatively criticize harmless people out of insecurity & lack of wisdom. fools like you should grow up & face the music as you are not going anywhere in life if you carry on being such an idiot. do not think, for even one second you can get away with all the shits you've put us through; karma will bite you in the ass for your sickening doings.

just had to get that out of my system. i feel much better now.

BREAKOUT! i went to see breakout last friday! it was entertaining; laughed from the beginning til the end. rating : 5/5 stars.

pre-show: grace, hongchin & I.

p/s the policeman-actor/character has really nice abs. like, really really nice abs.

we reached JB around 12AM & i finally could sleep at 1AM++ so in the end i left for scouts the next morning late. but its better than not going at all. im so glad rach&the other NS-goers are finally back. tea with rachel was fun, eating again when you're already full is not.
thats all for now.
xoxo

no idea how many litres : -

2010-03-10T06:24:00.008+08:00

hi!
LOOK AT THE TIME OF POST.
yeap. its early...i know. i was up since 4.35AM?
went to bed at 11.20PM...fell asleep at unknown time. in conclusion, i figured i only slept 3-4 hours = very crucial amount. im gonna face people with panda eyes later

NOTE to you, my dear reader(s) :
DO NOT! i repeat DO NOT drink gigantic amounts of tea/coffee/caffine after 4PM IF you plan to sleep later that night. otherwise, do the opposite.
by gigantic amounts i mean this:

aint she a beauty?
yeah. i assure you she'll keep you up all night in bed.

no darling, i didnt drink this all by myself;
yes dear, i had 6 other friends to share this with...well no, its 5.
5.30PM dinner with the girls was great. got to catch up with each other & stuffed myself.

i've been hungry since 11PM but i didnt grab a bite on anything 'cause i planned to sleep. ha
tried all sorts of technique to make me hit the snooze button in my brain but fail. duh'
i turn myself up-side down (head down+legs on wall), read french, tried reading korean*double fail*, lie on the bed with my eyes closed/pillow covering my face ETC.
estimate 200 minutes in slumberland : whoopie yai-yeh.
i dreamt my friends could speak korean. washthefloor!?

better luck next time.
p/s YYX 生日快乐
xoxo

its not a dream anymore!

2010-03-08T16:29:00.008+08:00

Ignorance
Crush3
TWYG
Looking Up
Careful
LTFB
NLTG
The Only Exception
For A Pessimist...
WTLO
Decode
-intermission-
Misery Business
BBBB

it was amazing! definitely awesome, certainly didnt regret losing my concert-ginity to PARAMORE. they are super duper fantastic. hayley's voice is the best!
I was lucky to see rozz the DJ from the 98.7fm & she gave a me high5('cause i asked) before the concert started. I was even luckier to see both shan&rozz at the end of the concert & took a photo with 'em + hugged'em both. they are so nice! however, i wasnt lucky enough to talk to paramore. i sure did scream my lungs out for em though...

hayley promised they'd be back again within 5 years.
i'll be back within...a week. hope you had a great weekend!
pictures are up in facebook & video at youtube.
xoxo

concert-ginity

2010-03-06T11:59:00.007+08:00

about the title : LOL WTF.

paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore
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paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore
paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore
paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore
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paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore paramore

off to see them...tomorrow.
im excited!

p/s this is my 1st time using all the colors available.
p/p/s black white & grey are not colors. they're shades.

schools the same. i still miss ali the cia on the goh. glad shes starting to have fun in aussie now.
scouts got cancled this morning 'cause of the smartass guard who doesnt do much but complain.
bio clock woke me up right after another weird dream. like all the previous nights. having a good relaxing dream is like a 0.0001% chance per century. worse than striking the lottery. whoopie.
currently addicted to korean entertainment. no hecking idea why. especially the SuJu E.H.M. ones on youtube...

have a happy weekend.
my happiness is delayed. haha
xoxo

bruises & burns. slaps & maps.

2010-02-28T00:15:00.006+08:00

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

thinking day was so fun. & tiring. & hot. SMKST's air ventilation in the canteen is horrible.
ken, peiyin & i shredded carrots for the yusheng & i sliced off my right thumb enamel by a tiny bit. other than that the games were really interesting & it was so great to see the ex-seniors again. + acting pregnant is so funny. i had much joy doing that...i mean acting; not being pregnant.

i like their dress. & the dance duh'

xoxo

false divorce after disclosure

2010-02-23T21:49:00.005+08:00

last thurdays we went to Bali, Indonesia for our CNY vacation, 4 night & 3 days...(we arrived during the evening) fun fun fun & really relaxing+stress less there. the people are friendly & annoying 'cause most of them crowd you with tonnes of expensive stuffs they're trying to sell. i was : no no no all the way.

we went jet skiing, scuba diving, fed fish, snorkelling, failed all 4 attempts in water skiing(it looks easy but its not!)... 2/3 of us experience the on-goings in a spa too. the massage sucks but very relaxing otherwise. visited the hindu-buddhis temple too, walked much, saw the active volcano there; beautiful piece of masterpiece God made. lunch on the mountain was a friggin rip off! so was dinner by the beach that same day. free & easy was the theme of the last day, went to a mall, got couple of nice things then swam & filled our swimsuits with black tiny sand at the Kuta Beach. got a light tan.

its amazing that mcds has WiFi now. remember my twit?
dont bother. its not important :)
i wanna go another country next year. $$$ sure does make the world go round.
hope you had a great CNY like i did; you obviously collected more red packets than me. if not...sorry!
tell me what you did by comment! XOXO

back tickles.

2010-02-15T18:04:00.007+08:00

Red envelopes are mainly presented at social and family gatherings such as weddings or on holidays such as the Lunar New Year. The red color of the envelope symbolizes good luck and is supposed to ward off evil spirits. The act of requesting for red packets is normally called (Mandarin): 讨紅包, 要利是. (Cantonese):逗利是. A married person would not turn down such request as it would mean that he or she would be "out of luck" in the new year. - wikipedia.org

its tradition. a custom.

this holiday has been great so far. during the reunion dinner my grandma cooked tonnes of food, probably could feed 5 families. & her best dish was the duck, best in the whole wide world. im so happy to see everybody again + the red packets = whooooohooo. yesterday was mad, there was church then we had lunch with the whole church congregation at my house...they watched a movie while i was napping. so friggin tired. when i woke up they left already but another members from another church came by & we had dinner together. did the yusheng thingy & watched another movie. basically its just friends-family-family-church members-friends-family.

today was weird so far. well not really. it was fun. just expected stuffs that were suppose to be a tradition but so far didnt happen, therefore weird. you'd have to be here to know what im talking about., sorry! it cant be explained here.

mad shit happened : i grew a fishy unibrow!

yeah. now i look super attractive & i'll definitely have a date on valentine's day next year.
"good job karyn. good job"

im totally addicted to this song for the time being, but i sorta...dislike the MV 'cause its so superficial. comment.
xoxo

KPOP for CNY

2010-02-12T23:23:00.005+08:00

rachs back from camp. so im pretty sure so are the others. betcha ass we all miss your mom's cooking or your mom.! i'd miss steak to be honest...though i dont eat much of that...well speaking of food :

reunion dinner with my primary school mates was casual at 1st. but then it just got better...so great to see 'em again. check the other photos at my facebook page!

next up! FAMILY REUNION DINNER at melaka.
get some sleep punks! & dont forget to drink your fluids.
water! i mean water. not pee.
xoxo

pretty photo indeed

2010-02-09T22:46:00.006+08:00

that is how messy my table is. do i look like a neat person to you? ha...yes! the sexy back of my new phone. u asked for it.
search 'nokia xpressmusic 5530' online & click to browse the pink+white version. i love it. doncha?

things have been pretty messy for me these days. the holidays are right around the corner...well not exactly a corner...more of a...pit stop. right over there, in front of you. which reminds me, im so gonna enjoy this CNY. hopefully what i just stated here wont backfire...hahaha
err...saturday - reunion dinner, monday - po's house, not sure when we're heading for KL but its definitely before thursday 'cause we're going to bali... wooohooooo! for 4 days. i have no idea what to expect. advice please?

ever experienced you've figured out what to do for the next few...days for you week & when you're just about to write 'em down those thoughts just vanish? holy cow thats whats going on right now. to me.

words of karyn in green.
记得等下sms我...
cehh 不要, 不然我打给你做嚒
哦 okok.
去看我blog!我在那里有祝你
哦好好记得放我美美的照片

kellie ong my sexy sis is turning...21.
she wishes to be forever 21. dream on la
i wish to go to forever21.
happy birthday -----. i know you dont visit my blog. meaning i have No reason or what so ever to wish you here. but anyhow, since im doing it already you shall check on my new post regularly. starting by the second you just read this.

hate slow processes? grow some patience.
dakota fanning is such an adorable child. when she was a child.
oh no, yes indeed shes certainly adorable now, not a child anymore though
goodnight world. yes i've visited your blog. betcha ass you wont comment.
xoxo

going pink

2010-02-06T22:13:00.005+08:00

A note from Josh F [from paramore] : "As some of you already know, I am engaged! So, as weird as it is to stay behind, I need to take some time off to plan the wedding and everything. Because of that I will not be joining the guys on the pacific rim tour coming up."
i was shocked; well, still am...wanna know another shocking thing?
MY DAD IS THE BEST 'cause he GOT ME A BRAND NEW PHONE. i may sound like im attracting people to rob me but i wanna declare the fact that my dad is cool. & i sound like an bunnybutt now. haah.

went shopping yesterday with my bro & got myself 2 pairs of shorts. yea yea big deal, they're just shorts. then we headed for the junk sale nearby my place which was so friggin crowded & hot. made me regret i went but its all good. im just so happy & today i got to go out with my friends since ...a long time ago. i need a good night's rest 'cause i slept at 130am yesterday & i woke up looking like poop. xoxo

p/s ignore the odd font. i have absolute no idea what happened

red red red. GO RED!

2010-02-02T22:50:00.005+08:00

i promised myself i can blog only if i've finished all my homework! HERE I AM!
aw i sound like such a obedient & disciplined little angel. hah... assumptions! you'd definitely be surprised to know what i did when i was younger.

oh CNY is coming soon. you can feel it! its getting sunnier everyday & relatives, neighbours or friends come over to visit & give you free food. next thing you know, you'd be going from house to house increasing your bank account digits & falling sick at the same time. ahh...the lovely thoughts of sore voiceless throats & high germ-killing fevers. excited yet?
i know im am.

school has been amazing so far, after all, its because its FEBRUARY! glad january is gone... for the next 11 months... painful but useful month, i've learn plenty from those 31 days. yesterday was great, much fun. today, class was crucial? i spent my whole entire time on Bible 'cause the stoooooopid activity took up Math's time. geez. i did wrongly at the 1st try & failed the 2nd. alas 3rd times the charm as they all say. hopefully tomorrow will be better.

the cell phone hunt is on. any recommendation under RM800 please? im aiming a touch screen one too! teehee xoxo

time said hi.

2010-01-30T14:46:00.006+08:00

my head hurts. badly.
make me wanna chop my head off; which is insane. get how much pain im in now? its like blood clots accumulating there, & the only way to heal this is through your trusty & friendly leech buddies. suck your blood out from your arm? maybe? & you're good to go! ( i have no beeping idea whether it works)
OR!
my neck is causing all the fuss. nerves...whats their problem! i slept well i think...whatever.
im having a splitting headache. bite me.

yesterday was a fun day i guess. went to watch Legion with a couple of fabulous friends & the popcorn at the cinema was too sweet. love it anyways. now i miss chocolates. but im staying away from it, like every other girl. unless they're really skinny down to their bones & pest-worm-babies are living in their tummies, its not that a big issue to them. the movie was silly. frankly. i found it thrilling to watch but when its over, its not that a fun show to waste 90minutes on.

speaking of show; this is the gayest MV i've watched. ever.
note to viewer : you might have a phobia of wearing heart shaped lockers after watching. just saying.
your discretion is advised.

Get Away With Murder

JEFFREE STAR | MySpace Music Videos
disturbing no? he/she is so gonna kick my ass if he/she knows im blogging about this.

february is right around the corner. can you believe this month is coming to an end already? its so fast! this month has been a big bummer for me but im sure im gonna miss it.
GOOD BYE JANUARY; HELLO ANG POWS.
xoxo

pick me pick me!!

2010-01-27T22:30:00.004+08:00

im not giving up im not giving up im not giving up.

well this week has been a big...disappointment 'cause i fell sick & i didnt manage to get any work done in school + my blocked nose is really annoying me, not forgetting to mention dad declined me going out on weekdays, which is reasonable...ok what im trying to say is, this week aint that a fair week so far. worse than normal. period.

yesterday night i found out paramore is coming to singapore on the 7th march, 8pm for a concert. & the next thing i found out was me hyperventilating; screaming internally so i wouldnt wake my dad up & get my ass whooped for screaming out loud. embarrassing...yeah... so i checked out the ticket prices & ... in S$ ...why not? money isnt the problem, however, the available seats are. didnt book any 'cause they're so far away from the stage & i wanna be close to 'em! so im thinking of another solution(s) which i hope will mighty come true because seeing paramore perform live is one of my to-do thing before i drop dead.

please pray for me that this dream will come true. gosh i sound pathetically desperate...which i really am. theres no buts. haha. well, this post is pretty much it. me wanting to go see paramore live at their first time in singapore. comment with solutions please? & pray for me? pretty pretty drop dead gorgeous please? with a cherry on top!

hopefully things will turn around superbly & luck will be on my side on time. xoxo

buat bodoh

2010-01-25T18:45:00.004+08:00

when it says the camp site is at "kong kong laut" you'd be nowhere near it.
im back from camp & i feel awesome. its fantastic how my toilet doesnt have any broken doors or bugs' nest or poor lighting. & the flush works perfectly & its so clean!
the people there are really nice & friendly. by people, i mean, the malays. very kind people indeed.
except 2 b****es i met during supper. i have no idea whats their problem.

anyways, i think im falling sick 'cause 3 1/2 over 24 hours of sleep is definitely a big fat NO-NO. feeding mosquitoes + standing under the blazing hot eye of the sky, my immune system is crucially weak. for now. i do wish to attend school without sleeping 65% of the time & getting some work done. especially go for P.E. tomorrow.

i've just downloaded google chrome & its ah-mazing. much much better. my life just upgraded a little.

i know this is a short post but hey, now you can go spend more time on your homework as i have to. xoxo

sweet candy sprinkles on a chocolate cookie.

2010-01-19T22:02:00.005+08:00

1st of all. my funny friend moved back to australia already; slightly sad about it but its for a good cause. shes gonna be much smarter there. + independent. kudos to her!
2nd: hell yeah! mom brought me out to get blouses for herself & got a new top/dress for myself too! thats totally fantastic! 'cause its been some serious months since i've shopped. similarly...to...forever.
3rd, tutorial KingScout camp this coming weekend! not pre- but...tutorial! i have more time to learn! ugh...otherwise my ass is so fried, going to the actual camp without any much knowledge. & this also leads us to...the...
4th. i miss my sisters much so its really too bad i cant get to see kathleen. sorry! camp.
5th. one hour of my life was wasted today. ha.
thats all folks! come back next week to see what i wrote about...LIFE.

to alicia :

dearest tree hugger, your eyes must be very...puffy from all the crying we did this afternoon that i started because im awesome & awesomer 'cause all the girls cried too in the end. like dominoes! i wish you all the best in australia where you originated...right? oh well, you have to do excellent there, study-wise i mean, & if you dare fail one paper, you're moving your fur ball ass back here malaysia. i miss you lots already & im sure you feel the same. even though we've only met... 6 months, i feel like we're extremely close already. this song is for you :

p/s i miss Summer. too bad she didnt appear to bid good bye. however... its not a shame at all.

xoxo

guessing nightmares.

2010-01-16T18:38:00.006+08:00

tonight i wanna go shopping, to feel less pathetic, less bored, less rich.
tonight i feel like skipping dinner, 'cause i wasnt hungry since 2, just because.
tonight i wanna see my sisters again, because i miss them much dearly, ever since i last saw them.
tonight i'd love to close my eyes & drift off to wonderland as if im floating on the dead sea; like im never gonna...
drown.
drown.
drown. drown down to the bottom of the waters :
seeing those horrid monsters again, chewing & munching off bits & pieces of my heart.
turning my soul into a chamber of depression, confusion, & frustration.

where did life come from? its so funny. one day its there, the next its not? do you agree? 'cause i dont see it anymore. not like i ever did. i guess i've been too caught up with myself im going blind. i need to get out of here. take me with you?

i miss shopping. really. its been so long. its a Karyn thing. haha & at the end of the day, its all about $ again. idiots say $ makes the world go round. idiots. or not? but thats not the most important thing in life. i dont know what is, though the question sounds easy, its not.
self discovery is crucial. achievement are difficult. situations get more complicated as you grow up...no, just kidding, they are simple if you make so. take control of your own emotions & perspectives. xoxo

money has wings.

2010-01-11T20:12:00.004+08:00

random fact of the day : i would love to have pancakes or waffles for breakfast. everyday.

oh hello! its been a week i know. been busy...art classes are back on & singing classes is a new beginning for me. yes, i need vocal training. no, i still suck so far. schools been great, even though class is 3 flights of stairs up, its good exercise + its not that tiring anymore once you've got the hang of it. right! scouts is still amazing as it is. new kids have joined, which is a humongous benefit for them but they dont know it yet. teehee. im going to king scout's pre-camp which is exiting yet it makes me anxious & worry a tad too much. i hate pioneering 'cause i suck at it. i wont anymore when in pro...wakakakkakakkakaka

today i learned many things at school such as :
1. monday is my day to do kitchen duty.
2. teacher you-may-know-who is upset with me 'cause i didnt do her work for a very long time. her not smiling is scary...bleh...
3. my new seat is cold 'cause of the a/c pointing directly at me.
ETC.

"my life may sound boring but its not." tricky eh?
im writing so much crap & i dont even know my friends will read these. oh well. xoxo

black font. really? really??

2010-01-04T17:11:00.006+08:00

what happy new year...

*note: post edited, try figuring out what happened OR ask the author.

lesson learned :
#1 make a bank account or get a giganormous heavy safe!
#2 paint your own house/room...do it DIY style.
#3 or...just hire local painters. they're much reliable + they cant run anywhere
#4 keep your valuables at a safe place where nobody will go/ cant go [read #1]
#5 blame yourself. (unless its really their fault)
#6 if you wanna cry your eyeballs out; do it. but remember to sleep once you're done.
#7 sleeping is essential.
#8 apply ice to hopefully reduce the puffiness...i said hopefully.
#9 pour your heart out to a close friend(s)
#10 with adult supervision; hunt that thief down.

oh well. talk happy things. think happy thoughts.

yes i love this song.

p/s Kel, mom tore down your Evan Yo poster behind your room door for idk what reason.

hello 2 OH 1 OH!

2009-12-31T00:36:00.010+08:00

figured i should blog; after all, its gonna be the last entry of 2009. for the past marvelous days i had so much fun. awesomeness was in the air. going out non-stop. i love it.
right after sleeping under the stars of Alicia's bedroom ceiling, i went to see lights on Orchard road & headed for karaoke with my all 3 of my beloved elder sisters on the next afternoon.it was christmas day & all 5 of us kids cooked dinner, not forgetting with some help from hui en & koo. meeting hongkong scouts was next on the list & touring with 'em the next morning was a blast. Sunday was tiring. didnt get enough sleep but im passed that! rach, diong & i went to catch zombieland, which was bloody hilarious btw. but before that we hung out at starbucks just to past time.
caught in a jam is no fun only if you say so & make it so. so, improvise!& you got...a camwhoring session! p/s we(me+others) watched avatar the following day, which was a good 2hours&1/2 spent. except the part where there was this war scene & i suddenly felt really sleepy...then i snoozed for a couple of seconds...haha...! whatever. next we have RYLA GATHERING '09 : in singapore again...but anyhoooooo...
omgosh it was so great to see everyone again. sad part was many werent able to make it. they are dearly missed. however, that didnt bring us down; we had fun anyways! we had lunch together & had this gift exchange thingy which eventually led to shu-shu-shu-shu-sugar rush hyper-ness. we also knocked balls... on the pool table. dinner was mad. we were the loudest among others i think...excessive noise tends to happen around me. ok ignore that. thats not always true. we then walked to the esplanade theater & got to know each other more on the roof top!reached JB around 11pm going midnight. .. .. .. yesterday was fine. breathing in lead paint fumes & screamings for manipulation was annoying. though the feet massage part was normal. tickish then pain. i miss watching wheel of fortune. later today will be awesome

mad mad. we're all mad.
happy new year guys. look forward to great achievements & dont look back at your past that is stoopid. make resolutions! mine? im gonna learn to drive & hopefully succeed to give out christmas presents to certain people. teehee! xoxo

time goes by...so quickly!

2009-12-26T20:55:00.007+08:00

i feel empty without my SMKST gang.
leaving that school was a mistake 'cause i miss'em hell lot yet my actions were sorta a blessing too for i learn more about the lord & it changed my point of views in life. pros & cons. life's a scale; you gotta balance things out.

well life's like that; its unfair but at the end of the day, its you who's responsible for your actions, whether you want to change it or not, thats just another decision.

meet peewee!

our adopted/dead polar bear bun. his body went missing later on...

i went to Alicia's for a sleep over 'cause shes heading back to her hometown next month to further her studies in aussie! [FYI : her hometown = australia] gosh im gonna miss her. "Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging" is a very typical teenage chick flick with countless predictable scenes. i heart this pic of us, smoking hot hahaha

we headed to the playground nearby her house the next day to behave 10 years younger .
goodluck in australia furball, wish you all the best there. dont get too attached to the trees though...muahahahahaha!

hope y'all had a merry xmas & fun boxing day. new year soon, any plans yet?
xoxo

expedition09 / RHSH camp

2009-12-22T00:46:00.005+08:00

ever delayed something? then you end up delaying some more & more...then finally you have to rush to finish it up because if you delay any longer, you'd be dead meat? yeap. this is how im feeling now. if i dont blog now, i might delay & you wouldnt have anything 'karyn' to read about!

as the title says; my expedition of walking 40km for a badge below RM3 was very tiring. step by step under the big bright eye of the day was...hot. bake-me-alive hot. you'd want to go crazy. then the weather changes...the next thing you'd know, its raining cats & dogs. the 1st half of the journey was crucial..felt like giving up constantly, then i remembered what rach said about this is not just a physical test but also a mental one. + sir tan was really encouraging...motivating us with thoughts of peaceful snoozing in a quiet cooling classroom...ahhh...it worked. haha

camp at 华仁中学 was fun to be frank, made new friends with great people & the games there was...plenty! there were many activities going on but i didnt bother to see any competitions except for the dancing one. geez. 'sorry sorry' is a beeping popular song; 5 times it was used by 5 different groups...other than that i gotta mention the model gadget competition. a group made a friggin crowded castle with 20 packets of bamboo sticks. ah-mazing i tell you.

one of the down sides to this trip was my feet were killing me! my whole body was literally exhausted! my shoulders & feet hurt the most...visiting the nurses office was a must. & yaxuan ended up with blisters on her left foot. then some smart ass burst/pierce her blister to "heal" it in some way, lead to an infection & caused her her trip back. poor girl had an big mountain-like bump right between her toes & leg, she couldnt walk back the 2nd half with the rest of us. besides than, ai jin lost her phone & cried her eyes out. gosh. i hate seeing my friends hurt.

ok. positive postive postive. despite all the muscle aches we had, we managed to climb to the top of a mountain in hutan lipar...of course we were cheated to. it was only when we hopped onto the bus & ready to go, the knowledge of mountain climbing was revealed. we're awesome? i know. JK...but seriously. we did it! + the classroom we slept in has a painted wall that is so pretty, pictures of famous people from all around the world, yaxuan decided to join 'em.

& i realized, the people in Kluang&Batu Pahat are very friendly. i mean, at least the ones i met. I met Iman & Aiman at the train station while waiting for a delayed train. they are so adorable!

sorry for the bad picture, Iman wouldnt stop moving...

i gotta stop talking of how much fun i had at the camp 'cause theres too much to tell. to see more pictures, go to my facebook profile!

today is the birthday of countless people but i know 4 of 'em. one of 'em darling dearest lee chien yee. :)
i heart BR & my friends. today was so much fun!

sleepover? hell yeah!
"im beautiful because im nice; im lovely because im polite"
xoxo

packing on hold?

2009-12-15T21:37:00.004+08:00

16dec09:
JB train station - Kluang train station ...[20km]walk to... AY bus station - BP bus station ...[5km]walk to... HR中学
20dec09: the route in reverse.
+ carrying 1/3 of your body mass. while walking.
gonne be tired. though im very excited about this. stamina testing. im not sure about any weight losing or any slimming down occuring. *keeping fingers crossed

camp camp camp camp camp! again! muahahahahahaha! hols are the best time for camps!

click here to watch an awesome MV. i'd love to embed it here but the option has been disabled.
i wanna/gotta sleep before 11pm in order to have sufficient sleep otherwise i wont have enough energy tomorrow thus finish packing must be done! goodnight people & have a great weekend...2 days later. haha yes!mysistersarecomingbackfromKLwhenimbackfromcamp&imsohappy!

why am i telling you all this junk? xoxo

cleanliness & corrupted governments.

2009-12-13T00:22:00.006+08:00

crazy crap its past 12 already! anyways, YESTERDAY a.k.a saturday was a blast! lunch was great & going to singapore with felicia (+ mom, ona,&ora) was ecstatic. we ate ice-cream that goes against gravity, we saw lots of gay guys, we took several silly photos, we chit chat a heck lot & of course, enjoyed ourselves.

other than that, being clueless & unexpecting anything/body else after a long day, a cute little stitch lover hiding behind my brother's room's door gave me a huge surprise when she sprung up from slouch over & did she signature peace-with-a-smile pose; now now that young lady is no other than vishelle koh mei hong! omg it was amazing seeing her again. pleasant surprise really.

bet you'll love this song

everybodys all grown up!
learn to sleep early people! xoxo